Showing posts with label Books. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Books. Show all posts

Sunday, April 11, 2010

What if we never meet again?

I begin to realise how very often we take each other's presence for granted. Today, as I was getting ready to board the aircraft to HK all on my own for the very first time, a question popped in my head 'What if we never meet again?' Since there was still time, I sat down and wrote a text message of gratitude and love to my loved ones. Forgive me if you did not receive this message as I wasn't sure if you would take it the right way. No, please, don't forgive me for that as there is nothing to forgive there. Instead, forgive me for not trusting you enough to be ready to receive such a message from me. My bad, my bad...

Although I already had some sort of expectations on the responses I would receive after sending out that particular message, still I felt a sense of surprise upon receiving them. Those replies went, "Are you ok?"; "Are you not coming back?"; "Why you say like that?" I could imagine what went on in their heads. It's like a sudden wake up call, "What if we really, never meet again?"; "What if that was the last time we'd ever see each other again?"; "What if that was the last time for us to hug?"; "Is that to be the last time I'd tell the person I love him/her?" And it boils down to guilt -> guilt of "have I said or done enough?"; "have I given enough?"; "have I loved and appreciated enough?"; even "have I been loved and appreciated enough?"

And it is heartwarming to also receive reciprocal replies! Like, "I love you too!"  What I could only sense from this space is a sense of mutual respect, gratitude and love. It's as if, the friendship or relationship is being lived moment by moment to the fullest, hence its tank is always full and thus, could we conclude, that we have given and received what is blessedly entitled to you and me?

Nothing is ever enough for the ego, so to speak. But the mind will always need a sort of completion. And that inspired me to make that expression to my loved ones. I will never know what would happen. To constantly pray for the safety of my family, loved ones or even myself while away from them (at this moment, that is) is deviating my attention to something beyond my control, and away from what is there for me in the present. As if I would know if I did die today, it would not be for my highest good. Like I said, I will never know.

And if I am fully present to each and every of my relationships, no guilt could penetrate as evident from the several relationships that I had experienced. No guilt! Just mutual respect, love & gratitude. So there cease the egoic relationship and emerges a spiritual relationship where learning is made possible with mutual respect and support without ever overextending or underextending ourselves.

I wanted my loved ones to know how much I love them, and how much I appreciate their presence in my life.. that I am so grateful for the lessons that I've learnt through them. I wish to say that I am at peace. Nevermind that no one knew or understood me, for today I have understood myself and that is all that matters.

To put it into words more real to my experience, I felt as if "I" am dying inside. From moment to moment, as we come closer to the Truth, a little bit of the old "I" dies, with the reborn of another. We die slowly, withering the false self for the True Authentic Self to emerge.

As what dear Paul Ferrini shares in his book,

"Once you enter truth, the ego dies, for it can get no foothold. But the ego is not assassinated. It dies into truth. It surrenders. It is not a painful act, but an ecstatic one."

~ excerpts from Illuminations on the Road to Nowhere by Paul Ferrini ~

And so I surrender myself and my loved ones to the Spirit who knows it all. That each moment as "I" die, I am reborn again in Spirit.

And for that, as "I" die, we may really, never meet again; but as and when we meet again, we will meet in Spirit, in essence, and in Love.

Namaste.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

The Witch of Portobello -- Paulo Coelho

I have finally finished reading this book - one of the books I had taken forever to finish! ;p

The coincidental part about this title (this particular book, that is) is that I bought this book for Terri for her birthday last year (I think), and immediately on the following day, I received the same title from BB and LF on the last session of the Mindfulness, A Starting Point course held at Clove&Clive.

What awed me even more later, was that I found out through Gladys' blog that she was reading the same title too! Coincidence? By the way, this was last year too. ;p

The beginning of the book was really interesting for me. Even Gladys mentioned to me that she thought I'd find this book interesting! Somehow, coming to the middle parts of the book, my interest withered away, don't know why.. which prompted me to move on to other books first, or more real, to move further along my own spiritual journey -- and finally, with much more information, knowledge and experiences that I've acquired, I found more relevance when I picked up the book again - only to find myself immersed in the book once again.

There are too many excerpts which I had mentally captured where I had initial intentions to share in entries but changed my mind afterwards. Due to sheer laziness.. lols! But there are 2 paragraphs extracted from the story which I would like to pen here, to remind myself of what we perceive as most important,

"Love is not a habit, a commitment, or  a debt. It isn't what romantic songs tell us it is - love simply is. That is the testament of Athena or Sherine or Hagia Sofia - love is. No definitions. Love and don't ask too many questions. Just Love."

"That was the only time I dared to ask her: 'Why do you love me?'
 She replied, 'I don't know and I don't care.'
 Now, as I put the finishing touches to these pages, I believe I may have found the answer in her last conversation with the journalist. Love simply is."

*excerpts from The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho*

I remember Hari asking me this once, "Why do you read?"
He knew clearly that I was reading out of a 'kiasu' (scared to lose) attitude to acquire more knowledge, thinking that the more information, knowledge I acquired (which in truth, I was actually only reading again, and again, materials with the same kind of essence all these while), I'd be able to progress further in my journey.

And he continued, "Why not read because you enjoy reading?"

Yes, I do enjoy reading.. but when I imposed conditions on 'what I have to get out of it', I so subconsciously burden myself, which robbed me the joy of reading.

You see, as long as I have not grown, what I read from book-to-book would display the same kind of messages to me! My perception could not be otherwise! lols!

When I finally released my expectations and just read whenever I felt like it, flowing with the flow; I not only enjoy reading whatever that was in front of me, I could relate the message in which the dear authors try to convey. :)

The Witch of Portobello is a good read, only when we are ready to receive what dear Paulo is trying to convey. :) Kudos, Paulo!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

All About Books

THE FUN BOOK CLUB


Fun Book Club Title: Notes to Myself by Hugh Prather

Friday was the commencing of the 1st session of the 3rd Fun Book Club at Clove&Clive. This time the book to be shared, contemplated and discussed was "Notes to Myself by Hugh Prather." The book did not arrive in time so dear Angel had to scan approximately 12 pages onto the laptop and to be shared with everybody, the first few pages of the book via the projector.

We only managed to cover 3 pages. There were much some of us had to say and share. It was beautiful. Many views and opinions were exchanged and it was obvious how some views were the same, while some views differ. While the words presented were the same on screen, but the meanings breathed into each individual minds were somewhatly different, depending on each of our own journey of understanding.

The Fun Book Club will carry out for another 5 weeks (in total of 6 weeks) or more; depending if we could finish covering the contents of the book. The facilitator is of course, BB, our beloved teacher, who had evolved and progressed in his own journey after his return from the retreat in Burma. We were all grateful for his presence, his facilitation and his sharing.

Thank you for the wonderful creation of the book-in-subject, BB's facilitation, everyone's presence and sharing during the Fun Book Club session. :)

BOOK EXCHANGE EVENT
Yesterday was an annual event held by Clove&Clive at Clove&Clive where people who are invited to thie Event were asked to bring a book or a CD or any gift of inspiration to exchange them during the session. The turnout was good. Our faithful Angel arranged everything and it was a smooth flowing event. Lots of laughters. We even played a game for better understanding on how two people never ever met each other, that views on even one word/subject matter would vary depending on each and individual's meaning or past experiences. Could we look or view things in the another way? Possible. Could we see things from the other's point of view? Possible. But in my experience, it is only possible and relevant if I myself had gone through the same experiences or conditionings. That too, may not fully define or call into a full 100% agreement or match to what another may mean or view. It's all in me and I could never really know what is in another. Get it?

During the book exchange, I received this book titled, "If I really wanted to Make A Difference, I would..." It didn't had an author's name so my guess is that it is a collection of explainations where we could apply our own attitude to life.


Book I've received in lieu of an exchange : If I really wanted to Make A Difference, I would...

I've read a couple of pages. They would serve as lovely reminders in my day-to-day. It's beautiful...

Thank you for the presence of all beautiful beings during the Book Exchange Event. :)

BONUS!!
As we were all about to leave, Angel gave me a surprise. She handed me this book, and told me that it's for me. I could see the mind going through its databank of its myraids of details, trying to search for an occasion, a promise, or a date which synchronised with this gift. There was none! It was just a sweet bonus from my darling Angel. :)


Surprise Bonus from Angel: Love Without Conditions by Paul Ferrini

I love Paul Ferrini's books. In fact, there are so many of his books that I would like to read and absorb totally! But Alas, my book shelf is still filled with books that I have yet to touch, not to mention that I am still struggling to finish up the 3 books that is still sitting on my 'Currently Reading' list. I find that books with spiritual contents are lovely to read, and yet, is one that we can't rush through. Having said that, I do have this trusting that each time I pick up a book to continue its contents, I find myself understanding what the chapter presents even more especially so after one or few experiences altogether. It's like a sort of invinsible guidance, leading me to experience certain events, be affected by it, and then turn to the book for some sort of better understanding. I trust. :)

Thank you Angel, for this beautiful book. :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Midnight Sun

Believe it or not, I woke up at approximately 440am and automatically walked to my laptop to continue reading the draft version of 'Midnight Sun' - Edward's version of Twilight.

No, no.. I didn't wake up on purpose. I just happened to wake up at that time. I think I was awakened by itchiness all over my body. I was scratching scratching, at the same time wondering why mozzies especially liked to target me. Argh. I've heard it before - the B blood group. How true? Beats me! :{

So since the scratching worked me up (at the same time noting that my body was probably showing signs of irritations of the mind), I woke up and led myself through 'Midnight Sun'. Although it is very much like reading 'Twilight' all over again, but it was rather insightful and funny reading Edward's version of it, despite it being just a story. Ah, isn't it always like that for all of us? We always love a good story, don't we? Lols.

For anyone who is interested in reading the draft, it can be found at Stephenie Meyer's wesbite. But like I said, it's just a draft. Apparently, she is working on it, but God knows when the book will be published! So let's just wait wait and wait.. Amen. _()_  [btw, this is a hands put together for a prayer symbol ;)]

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

New Moon



There, I've finished the book in 2 days. I read it when I first got it, read it before my nap, read it after my nap, read it before, during, after dinner, read it before I showered and immediately after changing, before AOD 901 & 921 started, in the midst of them and after that.. even, after Thea dozed off to dreamland, I was reading by the little lamp by my bedside.. I was addicted.

My only distractions today was breakfast with Ryan, Agnes and her sister, Irene, some insurance stuffs that I needed to settle and a resident committee meeting that I've called for. And I had completed the 2nd series of the Twilight Saga.

Ok, now I am trying to understand why the girls are so crazy about vampires..

The book was an enjoyment! I totally enjoyed my experience journeying the writer's creative and imaginative storyline. Now, I am wondering if the movie which will be screening on 20th November 2009 be as good as how it had been written. Nevertheless, I already have a date with hubby on that one and I am looking forward to it already. :D

I question myself - what now. Do I go back to MPH tomorrow to get Eclipse (the 3th series) or take a break? Although I roughly knew how the storyline went (thanks to the girls' neverending ramp about it whenever we met lately), I guess I am still looking forward to experience it myself.

I guess it is time to enjoy the illusion for a while. :)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

A Little Downtime from Qigong (AGAIN!) & Something to Perk me Up!

I felt a bit whoosy and dizzy and weak today the minute I got up and I can't help but associate it with last night's session of Qigong. Ah well, at least it was not as bad as the other time and I think it was because I was smarter this time... I was more careful not to 'overexert' myself or 'overabsorb' chi, for that matter. Lols.

Although I am a little sorry that I am not too well today, but there is something that I did for myself to perk me up! I bought 'New Moon' by Stephanie Meyer today! Well you see, I was contemplating if I should get those books since Terri & Gladys already have them and I could just borrow from them.. but you know what happened (of course you don't know.. how would you know, right?? DUH!!), I dropped Gladys book (Twilight) in a puddle of mud on Saturday night. It's not nice to give people back a muddy book right?(lols), so I decided that I will keep the book and get a new one for her. And since I was keeping the first book, aiyah.. might as well just buy the second and the third and the forth right? Hehehe.. well, I was tempted to, but I decided not to overwhelm myself too much so I took one step at a time. Bought 'New Moon' first. :)

I've started reading a few pages after reading a few chapters of Byron Katie's 'A Thousand Names for Joy' earlier while waiting for Thea to finish class. Just want to ensure a good mix.. lols. It will surely keep my day going for now.

Catch 'ya later, alligator!! ;p

Monday, November 2, 2009

Weekend

Twilight
You wouldn't believe it. I actually couldn't put the book down! 'Twilight', I mean! And I was contemplating after I finished the last page of the book, if I should rush to the book store to get 'New Moon'. I assessed my impulsiveness and decided - no, not today anyway; because I would have made a purposefully drive there, wasting resources. I'll get it tomorrow.. ;p

I finished the book in 2 days. It was great. I did not find it long-winded as what the girls experienced. I loved Stephenie Meyer's writing style, so descriptive and detailed, so that I, as the reader was able to experience what the writer envisaged. Fantastic. And guess what, I made hubby watch the movie with me too! He summarised that it gave him an insight of what Vampires are really like (especially the new breed - by the way, he loves vampires), and I experienced it more as a... you know, love story.. rather than a vampire story. The experience of a girl, falling in love; the experience of a girl, being in love; the experience of a girl, who fights to be with the one she loves. Yeah sure, the vampires do make the story a little more interesting. :)

Ryan & Agnes' Wedding
That was on Saturday night. We were right on time for the dinner. Hubby was making a fuss during the drive there on how we are always late for wedding dinners and etc etc etc... lols... it was really cute. I was unaffected at all. As far as I was concerned, I was not late. I was on time. I didn't have to wait for 1.5 hours before dinner started, and it gave me some time (or rather sufficient time) to say hi, congratulate the groom, find my sit and act pretty. Within half hour, dinner started. What perfect timing!!

Agnes looked beautiful. But that night, instead of bringing the G10 or BB's 500D (did I mention, BB put his 500D under my care while away on retreat), I brought out 'Twilight'. Really, as if I could read in the car or during dinner (quite rude, right?) - so I totally missed a picture opportunity with them with my own camera. Agnes was a little uncomfy in her gowns because well, she is pregnant. I guess the bloatedness and etc got into her. I remember those feelings.. hmm...

We didn't stay very late. Ryan had too many friends there to entertain to hope that he would give us the usual attention that he would have given us. So, we decided to leave early, right after dessert. :)

Salsa Havana
I heard that Salsa Havana was closing down and relocating. Hubby was quite sure that after the wedding dinner, I would want to go straight home so that I could continue reading 'Twilight'. He was right. There was about 80% of me which wanted to do that. But I figured, we (hubby and I) were already out, and I was dressed pretty decently (not like my usual si-lai-house-wife style) so I told him that I want to go to Salsa Havana - that is, of course, if Alina was there too.

So I texted Alina. So blessed, she was there. After the dessert, we left for Salsa Havana. It has been a long while since I've heard latin music. Sounded like heaven to me. I was welcomed by the sight of Mike standing outside Salsa Havana, smoking. He then brought me to Alina. It was so good to see her again! I missed her. :) And it was pretty good to see her in colours too (as in colourful makeup)! She looked gorgeous. :)

I had a total of 3.5 dances only (yes, I counted). Thrice with Mike and half a dance with hubby. I tried to teach him, but he was really too shy... poor fella.. Besides that, I had a great time catching up with Alina. :)

We left at about 1pm. I think we were there for barely 1.5 hours. But it was ok. It was a good start. At least I am physically there, rather than dreaming about it!!

Home & Sleep
After we got home and changed, I read. Lols... just couldn't resist. But I guess I was too tired after that, I actually dozed off.

And I woke up the next morning (Sunday) at 1130am!! Jolly wholly!! I've never woke up so late in a long long time! Felt great! And then I read, and read, and read with the short interruption trip to Pyramid to get my laptop fixed (the letter 's' on my keyboard hadn't been functioning for a while ;p).

And can you imagine, after we got back, I slept some more.. suddenly I just love to sleep so much.. Lols. Must be catching up with lost sleep before this!

I was literally forced to wake up just to have dinner.. :/ I think if hubby didn't wake me up, I would have slept right through... just to wake up to read 'Twilight' instead.

Dinner was darn good, by the way. My in laws (had dinner with them) always had a way to work up my appetite! :D

Conclusion
I had a good mix of the weekend. The reading, the dancing, the sleeping, the eating, the traveling, the catching up and etc... Now, I am quite determined to get a pair of dancing schools. I wanna go dancing with Alina and Gladys and Terri. Hubby said he would take up dancing, as long as it made me happy. Well, I am more in a position of, 'if you wanna take up dancing, make sure that you are happy. not me!'

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Thinking From the Infinite by Carell Zaehn

I've completed the book yesterday while driving home from Violet Flame and being caught in traffic at the Damansara area. At some points, I was getting frustrated with the traffic, but some points, I realised that I was actually appreciating the slow traffic caused it allowed me time to read the book. But seriously, don't try this. It's not safe.
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This content of the book is complementary to what Hari has been sharing, to what CM mentioned about in his workshop, to what BB & LF shared in their workshop. Reading the book made me realise that most information were the same albeit through different channels and different delivery styles. It's very much similar to The Secret's concept, just that some books explain a little more about how it works, some books explain a little more about the techniques to make it work, and some books explain why it actually works (did I just mention the 3 things but sound the same?). :{
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Anyway, this book is quite a pleasant read. Consider it. Perhaps if you have not seen Hari, attended CM or BB & LF's workshop, or have not read The Secret, or have read The Secret but do not understand it... this book may be able to provide further insights to what you think you already know - whether it works for you, or not.
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Have fun!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Excerpts from Your Immortal Reality by Gary R. Renard

Just finished reading the final chapter of the book today and would like to pen down a few things here for my own remembrance, as reminders...
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Who is the "you" who are living in this world?
Spirit is immortal, and immortality is a constant state.
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Projection makes perception. The world you see is what you gave it, nothing more than that. But though it is no more than that, it is not less. Therefore, to you it is important. it is the witness to your state of mind, the outside picture of an inward condition. - I made what I'm seeing...
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True forgiveness means you don't judge and condemn another. There's not really any sin and guilt out there, because none of what we've been talking about happened except in a dream, and dreams are not real. So J counsels you in his Course not to make the ideas of sin and guilt real in the people, events, and situation you see in the world: "Call it not sin but madness, for such it was ans so it still remains. Invest it not with guilt, for guilt implies it was accomplished in reality. And above all, be not afraid of it... When you seem to see some twisted form of the original error rising to frighten you, say only, 'God is not fear, but Love,' and it will disappear.
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Nothing real can be threatened.
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Nothing real exists.
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I am here only to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Him Who sent me.
I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do, because He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.
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I am immortal spirit.
This body is just an image.
It has nothing to do with what I am.
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You are Spirit.
Whole and innocent.
All is forgiven and released.
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*Part teachings from A Course of Miracles &
excerpts from Your Immortal Reality by Gary R. Renard*
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Thank you Gary, for sharing with us your story. And, thank you Angel, for lending me this beautiful book. :)
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Namaste.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

A little bit more on Motivation

I am reading a book called 'Your Immortal Reality' by Gary R. Renard. I came across this page in the book which I felt is relevant to my previous entry 'What Motivates You the Most?' which I would like to pen down here. They were discussing about the movie, "The Passion of Christ" produced by Mel Gibson.
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"GARY: (part of the conversation) Throughout the film, J's body is made out to be very special. The presupposition is that he has to be sacrificed to atone for other people's sins. But the quote you gave me from Isaiah demonstrates that that idea was already as old as the hills, and the religion that came along later just superimposed it on to J (Jesus). No thought is ever given to the fact that the whole premise gives us a God who is like humanity--in other words, insane. The movie, like the religion it's about, glorifies suffering and sacrifice. And people were bringing their nine- and ten-year-old kids to see this thing, and when they were coming out of the theater, you could just see the look on their faces, as if they were saying to the kids, "There, you see? You see what Jesus did for you? You see how he suffered and sacrificed himself for you? You guilty little bastards. Now what are you gonna do for him? You're gonna be a Christian, right?"
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ARTEN: Yes, and there you have the makings of a very successful religion. Because if you want to get people to do something in this world, including impressionable children, make them feel guilty. You could make them believe in Santa Claus until they're 30 if you found a way to use guilt and nobody told them any better. And in this case, nobody's telling them any better. The whole thing also makes the body very real and the destruction of it important.
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GARY: But if the guiltless mind cannot suffer, as the Course says, then it wouldn't have mattered what they did to J. He wouldn't have reacted to what was done to him and felt all the pain the movie shows him suffering through.
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PURSAH: Yes, and that's very important. That's another definitive idea in the Course. The guiltless mind cannot suffer. It blows the whole idea of glorifying sacrifice right out of the water. Because, as we've told you before, pain is not a physical process, it's a mental process, and if you healed all the unconscious guilt in the mind, then you couldn't feel any pain. That changes the message of the Crucifixion from the idea of worshipping suffering and sacrifice to a demonstration that if you were healed, then it would be impossible for you to feel any pain or to suffer. But suffering, like people now believe J did, is a hallmark of the religion that he had nothing to do with, but that was founded in his name.
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GARY: They have a cruci-fixation."
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*Excerpts from Your Immortal Reality by Gary R. Renard*
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Now, isn't that mind-blowing... I am still half way through this book. But just to share, each time I read a book with contents of the Truth, it takes me a while (as in, I wouldn't be able to finish it within 24 or 48 hours). But the book has an answer - that it does take a while to break the ego, which is why most people sometimes experience certain discomfort in reading such books. The ego, will always feel uncomfortable in any process of being 'undone'.
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Also, just to share a little bit more about the book, part of its contents shares that forgiveness is one of the fastest process to undo the ego and get Home. And this kind of forgiveness is somewhat different from the kind of forgiveness that we had been taught or conditioned. This kind of forgiveness is a kind of forgiveness to free ourselves, with the aid of the Holy Spirit and is taught in A Course in Miracles. Of course, the book also says that while A Course of Miracles can be one of the fastest way, it is not the only way. It is important to actually apply what is taught in the Course in our daily lives - same as everything else. What we learn in those self-improvement or self-help courses, no use we have the knowledge, talk or brag about it intellectually but not practice it or apply it in our daily lives - because knowing and talking about it doesn't get us Home. It just makes us look more intelligent in the level of form.
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I had an experience today while driving around to do my stuffs this morning. What I thought was the shortest or quickest route to my destination resulted in me delaying my arrival at the desired destination, or getting lost. It made me realised that while there are short cuts available, not knowing the right direction of the short cuts also delays my journey to the destination.
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There are already many tools out there for purpose of our own awakening. Many of us attend so many kinds of different courses, get motivated for a week or two, and then simmer down to the mundane routine of what we call 'Life'. No wonder some people say that motivational or self-help courses only works for a while. In truth, it can lasts for however long you want it to PROVIDED you practise and apply it onto your daily life. If you are not responsibility for your own experiences, or 'life' as you would call it for now, then who is?
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Coming back to the movie, I never watched the movie because I don't fancy gory scenes. But I did receive an email once, with a picture of Jesus' suffering face and blood and all those, you know, gory details about how he was pinned to the cross. The message - He Died for You, What have You done for Him? Because I didn't know any better then, I felt extreme guilt; but, it was also because I knew a little better, I deleted the message right there and then, instead of forwarding it to others (there was a request to forward the email to friends and family to spread the so-called message of God). Guilt is mine, so let me be responsible for it - what is the use of spreading guilt onto others?
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Seriously, if God is Love, and is Perfect Love as what the bible says, then would God create guilt in what we call ourselves, "the Sons of God"? So if it was not God who created it, then who did? Are you ready to find out the answer? *winks*

Saturday, July 25, 2009

A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

By the way, I've just finished reading the book 'A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle'. It is a well written book about the nature of the unobserved mind - the ego, painbodies, who we truly are and recommendations on how to serve our purpose on earth... I'd highly recommend it to anyone who is eyeing on a good book to read. Hubby read it too and felt a 'shift'!
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This book was given to me last year by a like-minded friend, Soon for whom I am grateful for this gift. And may you too find Truth which has always been there and emerged consciously on the coming New Earth.
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Namaste.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

A little about Wisdom

Wisdom is achieved very slowly. This is because intellectual knowledge, easily acquired, must be transformed into 'emotional' or subconscious, knowledge. Once transformed, the imprint is permanent. Behavioural practice is the necessary catalyst of this reaction. Without action, the concept will wither and fade. Theoretical knowledge without practical application is not enough.
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Balance and harmony are neglected today, yet they are the foundations of wisdom. Everything is done to excess. People are overweight because they eat excessively. Joggers neglect aspects of themselves and others because they run excessively. People seem excessively mean. They drink too much, smoke too much, carouse too much (or too little), talk too much without content, worry too much. There is too much black-or-white thinking. All or none. This is not the way of nature.
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In nature there is balance. Beasts destroy in small amounts. Ecological systems are not eliminated en masse. Plants are consumed and then grow. The sources of sustenance are dipped into and then replenished. The flower is enjoyed, the fruit eaten, the root preserved.
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Humankind has not learned about balance, let alone practiced it. It is guided by greed and ambition, steered by fear. In this way it will eventually destroy itself. But nature will survive, at least the plants will.
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Happiness is really rooted in simplicity. The tendency to excessiveness in thought and action diminishes happiness. Excesses cloud basic values. Religious people tell us that happiness comes from filling one heart's with love, from faith and hope, from practicing charity and dispensing kindness. They actually are right. Given those attitudes, balance and harmony usually follow. These are collectively a state of being. In these days, they are an altered state of consciousness. It is as if humankind were not in its natural state while on earth. It must reach an altered state in order to fill itself with love and charity and simplicity, to feel purity, to rid itself of its chronic fearfulness.
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How does one reach this altered state, this other value system? And once reached, how can it be sustained? The answer appears to be simple. It is the common denominator of all religions. Humankind is immortal, and what we are doing now is learning our lessons. We are all in school. It is so simple if you can believe in immortality.
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If a part of humankind is eternal, and there is much evidence and history to think so, then why are we doing such bad things to ourselves? Why do we step on and over others for our personal 'gain' when actually we're flunking the lesson? We all seem to be going to the same place ultimately, albeit at different speeds. No one is greater than another.
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Consider the lessons. Intellectually the answers have always been there, but this need to actualize by experience, to make the subconscious imprint permanent by 'emotionalising' and practising the concept, is the key. Memorising in Sunday School is not good enough. Lip service without the behaviour has no value. It is easy to read about or talk about love and charity and faith. But to do it, to feel it, almost requires an altered state of consciousness. Not the transient state induced by drugs, alcohol, or unexpected emotion. The permanent state is reached by knowledge and understanding. It is sustained by physical behaviour, by act and deed, by practice. It is taking something nearly mystical and transforming it to everyday familiarity by practice, making it a habit.
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Understand that no one is greater than another. Feel it. Practice helping another. We are all rowing the same boat. If we don't pull together, our plants are going to be awfully lonely.
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*Excerpts from Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss, M.D.*
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Thanks T2, for recommending me such a wonderful book to read. Love. :)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Remaining Open to Love by Paulo Coelho

This is a dedication to those in a relationship (be it good or bad - your own definition), leaving a relationship (for good or bad - your own definition) and not in a relationship (could be good or bad - your definition). Blessed Be.
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There are times when we long to be able to help someone whom we love very much, but we can do nothing. Circumstances will not allow us to approach them, or the person is closed off to any gesture of solidarity and support.
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Then all we are left with is love. At such times, when we can do nothing else, we can still love - without expecting any reward or change or gratitude.
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If we do this, the energy of love will begin to transform the universe about us. Wherever this energy appears, it always achieves its ends. 'Time does not transform man. Will-power does not transform man. Love transforms,' says Henry Drummond.
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I read in the newspaper about a little girl in Brasilia who was brutally beaten by her parents. As a result, she lost all physical movement, as well as the ability to speak.
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Once admitted to hospital, she was cared for by a nurse who said to her every day: 'I love you.' Although the doctors assured her that the child could not hear and that all her efforts were in vain, the nurse continued to say: 'Don't forget, I love you.'
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Three weeks later, the child recovered the power of movement. Four weeks later, she could again talk and smile. The nurse never gave any interviews, and the newspaper did not publish her name, but let me set this down here, so that we never forget: love cures.
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Love transforms and love cures; but sometimes, love builds deadly traps and can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give him or herself completely. What is this complex feeling which, deep down, is the only reason we continue to love, struggle and improve?
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It would be irresponsible of me to attempt to define it, because I, along with every other human being, can only feel it. Thousands of books have been written on the subject, plays have been put on, films produced, poems composed, sculptures carved out of wood or marble; and yet all any artist can convey is the idea of a feeling, not the feeling itself.
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But I have learned that this feeling is present in the small things, and manifests itself in the most insignificant of our actions. It is necessary, therefore, to keep love always in mind, regardless of whether or not we take action.
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Picking up the phone and saying the affectionate words we have been postponing. Opening the door to someone who needs our help. Accepting a job. Leaving a job. Taking a decision that we were putting off for later. Asking forgiveness for a mistake we made and which keeps niggling at us. Demanding a right that is ours. Opening an account at the local florist's, which is a far more important shop than the jeweller's. Putting music on really loud when the person you love is far away, and turning the volume down when he or she is near. Knowing when to say 'yes' and 'no' because love works with all our energies. Discovering a sport that can be played for two. Not following any recipe, not even those contained in this paragraph, because love requires creativity.
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And when none of this is possible, when all that remains is loneliness, then remember this story that a reader once sent to me.
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A rose dreamed day and night about bees, but no bees ever landed on her petals.
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The flower, however, continued to dream. During the long nights, she imagined a heaven full of bees, which flew down to bestow fond kisses on her. By doing this, she was able to last until the next day, when she opened again to the light of the sun.
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One night, the moon, who knew of the rose's loneliness, asked, 'Aren't you tired of waiting?'
'Possibly, but I have to keep trying.'
'Why?'
'Because if I don't remain open, I will simply fade away.'
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At times, when loneliness seems to crust all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.
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*Excerpts from Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho*

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

The Disappearance of the Universe by Gary R. Renard

I've just recently completed another mind-blowing book. Why I call is mind-blowing is because the contents reminds me of a certain Truth that I've always known, but forgotten. When I initially read the book, I felt quite uneasy because it was almost different from what we had always been taught, always believed.. but somehow after certain chapters of the book, I became more receptive of the book and began enjoying it. I guess that is why it took me about 3 months plus to finish reading it. When Tuck Loon handed me the book, he told me to try to finish it within 1 month, but it was truly quite difficult due to the uneasy feelings that arised. But somehow as I persisted, I felt a shift in me the minute I finished the last chapter of the book. It was amazing.
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Below here are some of my own understandings and excerpts from the book, also excerpts derived from A Course In Miracles from the book.
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God did not create the world. We did. - my own understanding
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"What you think is happening is not happening. Reality is invisible and anything that can be perceived or observed in any way, even measured scientifically, is an illusion."
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"The guiltless mind cannot suffer." - A Course in Miracles
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"the ego is just a thought - and thoughts can be changed."
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"Forgiveness then, is an illusion, but because of its purpose, which is the Holy Spirit's, it has one difference. Unlike all other illusions it leads away from error and not towards it." - A Course in Miracles
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"Judge ideas, not people. Then accept the true idea."
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"Both the ego and the Holy Spirit are still to be found in every mind; it's just that the Holy Spirit is being drowned out by the ego's voice because that's what you choose to listen to - and what you really are has been pushed out of your awareness. We said before that you may have forgotten the truth, but it's still there - buried in your mind."
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"The ego's voice speaks to you as though it's your friend and is watching out for your best interests. You'll recall we've already said the ego has convinced you that God is going to get you and you'd better run for it to a place where you'll be safe. That place is this universe. As far as the ego is concerned, the best defense is a good offense. In fact, defense and offense are two sides of the same coin."
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"Now you appear to be in the universe, while you do not realize that you are actually quite literally out of your mind"
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"Love holds no grievances - You who were created by Love like Itself can hold no grievances and know your Self. To hold a grievance is to forget who you are. To hold a grievance is to see yourself as a body. To hold a grievance is to let the ego rule your mind and to condemn the body to death. Perhaps you do not yet fully realize just what holding grievances does to your mind. It seems to split you off from your Source and make you unlike Him. It makes you believe that He is like what you think you have become, for no one can conceive of his Creator as unlike himself.
Shut off from your Self, Which remains aware of Its likeness to Its Creator, your Self seems to sleep, while the part of your mind that weaves illusions in its sleep appears to be awake. Can all this arise from holding grievances? Oh, yes! For he who holds grievances denies he was created by Love, and his Creator has become fearful to him in his dream of hate. Who can dream of hatred and not fear God?
It is as sure that those who hold grievances will redefine God in their own image, as it is certain that God created them like Himself, and defined them as part of Him. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will suffer guilt, as it is certain that those who forgive will find peace. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are, as it is certain that those who forgive will remember.
Would you not be willing to relinquish your grievances if you believed all this were so? Perhaps you do not think you can let your grievances go. That, however, is simply a matter of motivation."
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"TRUE FORGIVENESS: A Thought Process Example - You're not really there. If I think you are guilty or the cause of the problem, and if I made you up, then the imagined guilt and fear must be in me. Since the separation from God never occurred, I forgive "both" of us for what we haven't really done. Now there is only innocence, and I join with the Holy Spirit in peace."
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"Choose between the strength of Christ and the ego's weakness. The world is asleep."
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"Today I let Christ's vision look upon All things for me and judge them not, but give Each one a miracle of love instead." - A Course In Miracles
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"It's always yourself who you are really helping."
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Christ means the embodiment of all that God is... the Holy Spirit, the Universe, the One. - my own understanding.
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*Excerpts from The Disappearance of the Universe by Gary R. Renard*
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Note: I am not sharing the contents of what's seemingly is from a religion. I am sharing excerpts of a Truth, known to us; but forgotten.
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Blessed Be.

Friday, February 6, 2009

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

This is a book that I've just completed yesterday. I finished it within 24 hours. It is quite an easy book to read, with some spiritual lessons that I wish to share.
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When someone sees the same people very day, as had happened with him at the seminary, they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.
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"It's this: that at a certain point in our lies, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie."
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"Don't forget that everything that you deal with is only one thing and nothing else. And don't forget the language of omens. And, above all, don't forget to follow your destiny though its conclusion."
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"Everyone has his or her own way of learning things," he said to himself. "His way isn't the same as mine, nor mine as his. But we're both in search of our destinies, and I respect him for that."
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The camel driver, though, seemed not to be very concerned with the threat of war.
"I'm alive" he said to the boy, as they ate a bunch of dates one night, with no fires and no moon. "When I'm eating, that's all I think about. If I'm on the march, I just concentrate on marching. If I have to fight, it will be just as good a day to die as any other.
"Because I don't live in either my past of my future. I'm interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. You'll see that there is life in the desert, That there are stars in the heavens, and that tribesmen fight because they are part of the human race. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now."
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The language that everyone on earth was capable of understanding in their hearts. It was love.
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It was the pure Language of the World. It required no explanation, just as the universe needs none as it travels through endless time.
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And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one's dreams would have no meaning.
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"When people consult me, it's not that I'm reading the future; I am guessing at the future. The future belongs to God, and it is only he who reveals it, under extraordinary circumstances. How do I guess at the future? Based on the omens of the present. The secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings, confident that God loves his children. Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity."
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"Only when he, himself, reveals it. And God rarely reveals the future. When he does so, it is for only one reason: it's a future that was written so as to be altered."
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"It's not what enters men's mouths that's evil," said the alchemist. "It's what comes out of their mouths that is."
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"Don't say anything," Fatima interrupted. "One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving."
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"Don't think about what you've left behind," the alchemist said to the boy as they began to ride across the sands of the desert. "Everything is written in the Soul of the World, and there it will stay forever."
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"If one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. And one can always come back. If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return."
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"There is only one way to learn," the alchemist answered. "It's through action. Everything you need to know you have learned through your journey. You need to learn only one thing more."
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"The wise men understood that this natural world is only an image and a copy of paradise. The existence of this world is simply a guarantee that there exists a world that is perfect. God created the world so that, through visible objects, men could understand his spiritual teachings and the marvels of his wisdom. That's what I mean by action."
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"Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World, and it will one day return there."
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"Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you'll know its dreams and wishes, and will know how to deal with them.
"You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you'll never have to fear an unanticipated blow."
The boy continued to listen to his heart as they crossed the desert. He came to understand its dodges and tricks, and to accept it as it was. He lost his fear, and forgot about his need to go back to the oasis, because, one afternoon, his heart told him that it was happy. "Even though I complain sometimes," it said, "it's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."
"My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer," the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse that the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity."
"Every second of the search is an encounter with God," the boy told his heart. "When I have been truly searching for my treasure, everyday has been luminous, because I've known that every hour was a part of the dream that I could find it. When I have been truly searching for my treasure, I've discovered things along the way that I never would have seen had I not had the courage to try things that seemed impossible for a shepherd to achieve."
So his heart was quiet for an entire afternoon. That night, the boy slept deeply, and when he awoke, his heart began to tell him things that came from the Soul of the World. It said that all people who are happy have God within them. And that happiness could be found in a grain of sand from the desert, as the alchemist had said. Because a grain of sand is a moment of creation, and the universe has taken millions of years to create it. "Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits him," his heart said. "We, people's hearts, seldom say much about those treasure, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later, we simply let life proceed, in its own direction, toward its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them - the path to their destinies, and to happiness. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place.
"So, we, their hearts, speak more and more softly. We never stop speaking out, but we begin to hope that our words won't be heart: we don't want to people to suffer because they don't follow their hearts."
"Why don't people's hearts tell them to continue to follow their dreams?" the boy asked the alchemist.
"Because that's what makes a heart suffer most, and hearts don't like to suffer."
From then on, the boy understood his heart. He asked it, please, never to stop speaking to him. He asked that, when he wandered far from his dreams, his heart press him and sound the alarm. The boy swore that, every time he heard the alarm, he would heed its message.
That night, he told all of this to the alchemist. And the alchemist understood that the boy's heart had returned to the Soul of the World.
"So what should I do now?" the boy asked.
"Continue in the direction of the Pyramids," said the alchemist. "And continue to pay heed to the omens. Your heart is still capable of showing you where the treasure is."
"Is that the one things I still needed to know?"
"No," the alchemist answered. "What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realised, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we moved toward that dream. That's the point at which most people give up. It's the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, "one 'dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.'
"Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested."
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"When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed."
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"If a person is living out his destiny, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."
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"This is what we call love," the boy said, seeing that the wind was close to granting what he requested. "When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there's no need at all to understand what's happening, because everything happens within you, and even men can turn themselves into the wind. As long as the wind helps, of course."
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"Well, why did you say that I don't know about love?" the sun asked the boy.
"Because it's not love to be static like the desert, nor is it love to roam the world like the wind. And it's not love to see everything from a distance, like you do. Love is a force that transforms and improves the Soul of the World. When I first reached through to it, I thought the Soul of the World was perfect. But later, I could see that it was like other aspects of creation, and had its own passions and wars. It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be either better of worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that's where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are."
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Excerpts from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Friday, January 23, 2009

The Goose is Out by Osho

Beloved Osho,
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Yes, Osho, yes. There is no more bottle, no more You, no more I. only this drunken joy that makes my toes curl in ecstacy. But, Osho... what was the joke?
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Yoga Lalita, the ultimate joke, the only joke... The official, Riko, once asked Nansen to explain to him the old problem of the goose in the bottle.
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"If a man puts a gosling into a bottle," said Riko, "and feeds him until he is full-grown, how can the man get the goose out without killing it or breaking the bottle?"
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Nansen gave a great clap with his hands and shouted, "Riko!"
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"Yes, Master," said the official with a start.
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"See," said Nansen, "the goose is out"
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This is the only ultimate joke in existence. You are enlightened! You are buddhas, pretending not to be, pretending to be somebody else. And my whole work here is to expose you.
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See, Lalita, the goose is out! You will make every effort to put it back into the bottle, because once the goose is out then you don't have any problems. And man knows only how to live with problems, he does not know how to live without problems, so he goes on putting the goose back into the bottle.
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There is a beautiful story of Rabindranath Tagore.
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He says: I was searching for God for thousands of lives. I saw him... sometimes far away, close to a distant star. I rushed. By the time I had reached there he had gone further ahead. It went on and on. Finally I arrived at a door, and on the door there was a signboard: "This is the house where God lives" - Lao Tzu House!
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Rabindranath says, I became very worried for the first time. I became very troubled. Trembling, I went up the stairs. I was just going to knock on the door and suddenly, in a flash, I saw the whole point. If I knock on the door and God opens the door, then what? Then everything is finished - my journeys, my pilgrimages, my great adventures, my philosophy, my poetry, all my longings of the heart - all is finished! It will be suicide.
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"Seeing the point so crystal clear," Rabindranath says, "I removed my shoes from my feet, because going back down might create some noise - he might open the door! Then what? And from the moment I reached the bottom of the steps I have not looked back. Since then I have been running and running for thousands of years. I am still searching for God, although now I know where he lives. So I only have to avoid that Lao Tzu House and I can go on searching for him everywhere else. There is no fear... but I have to avoid that house. That house haunts me! I remember it perfectly. If by chance I accidentally enter that house, then all is finished.
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It is a beautiful insight.
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Man lives in problems, man lives in misery. To live without problems, to live without misery, needs real courage.
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I have lived without any problems for twenty-five years, and I know it is a kind of suicide. I simply go on sitting in my room doing nothing. There is nothing to do!
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If you can allow so much silence to penetrate your very being, only then you will be able to leave the goose out of the bottle. Otherwise, for a moment maybe... and then again you will push the goose back into the bottle. That gives you some occupation; it keeps you occupied, keeps you concerned, worried, anxious. The moment there are no problems there is no mind. The moment there are no problems there is no ego. The ego and the mind can exist only in the turmoil of problems.
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As I see it, man creates problems to nourish his ego. If there are not real problems he will invent them. But he is bound to invent them, otherwise his mind cannot function anymore.
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So, Lalita, this is my simple declaration: that all is divine. The trees and the rocks and the stones and the mountains and the stars - all are divine. The goose has never been in the bottle. it is only the man who cannot live without problems who forces the goose back into the bottle; and then he starts asking how to get it out. And then he makes impossible conditions: first, the bottle should not be broken, the goose should not be killed.
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Now the goose is big, it fills the whole bottle. It is impossible to fulfil the conditions. Either the bottle has to be broken - that is not allowed; or the goose has to be killed - that is not allowed. You have to bring the goose out without killing it and without destroying the bottle. That is not possible, in the very nature of things. Aes dhmmo sanantano: this is how life's law is, it is not possible. So man remains happy because it is not possible, so he can go on carrying the bottle.
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I see Lalita carrying the bottle with the goose... But the truth is that the bottle is only your imagination, fantasy, just made of the same stuff that dreams are made of.
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This is the most difficult thing for humanity to accept. Hence, so much opposition to me - because I am telling you that you are gods, that you are buddhas, that there is no other God than you. That is the most difficult thing to accept. You would like to be a sinner, you would like to be guilty, you would like to be thrown into hell; but you cannot accept that you are a buddha, an awakened one, because then all problems are solved. And when problems are solved, you start disappearing. And to disappear into the whole is the only thing of worth, is the only thing of any significance.
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What I am telling to you is not a teaching. This place is a device - this is a buddhafield. I have to take away things which you don't have, and I have to give you things which you already have. You need not be grateful to me at all because I am not giving you anything new. I am simply helping you to remember. You have forgotten the language of your being.
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I have come to recognize it: I have remembered myself. And since the day I remembered myself I have been in a strange situation: I feel compassion for you, and deep down I also giggle at you, because you are not really in trouble. You don't need compassion, you need hammering! You need to be hit hard on the head! Your suffering is bogus. Ecstacy is your very nature.
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You are truth.
You are love.
You are bliss.
You are freedom.
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Enough for today.
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- An excerpt from The Goose is Out by Osho -

Mystery & the Mind

Mystery and mind cannot exist together; they are not, by their very nature, co-existential. Just like darkness and light: you cannot have both in your room. If you want darkness you have to extinguish the light; if you want light that you have to lose darkness. You can only have one, for the simple reason that the presence of light is the absence of darkness, the presence of darkness is the absence of light; they are not two things, in fact. The same phenomenon, present, is light; absent, is darkness. Now you cannot manage both, to be present and absent together.
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Mind is the presence of the non-mysterious, the logical, and meditation is the presence of the mysterious, the miraculous.
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Hence, move from the mind. Let art, poetry, painting, dancing become more important - they will bring you close to meditation - and finally take the plunge. If you have tasted something of poetry you will gather enough courage to take the ultimate plunge.
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Time consists of two tenses, not three. The present is not part of time; the past is time, the future is time. The present is the pentration of the beyond into the world of time.
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Time conceived of as part and future is the language of the mind - and the mind can only create problems, it knows no solutions. All the problems that humanity is burdened with are the mind's inventions. Existence is a mystery, not a problem. It has not to be solved, it has to be lived.
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People are trying to play the game of life but with many conditions. and those conditions prevent them. Life is a beautiful game if you don't have conditions to it. If you can simply plunge into it with no ifs, with no buts, then there is no need for enlightment.
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What is actually meant by enlightenment? - a relaxed, restful approach to life, a deep synchronicity with existence, an egoless communion with the whole.
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- Excerpts from The Goose is Out by Osho -

Friday, January 16, 2009

A little about Anger

Consider this:
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"Anger simply shows fear. Remember always: anger is fear standing on its head. It is always fear that hides behind anger; fear is the other side of anger. Whenever you become afraid, the only way to hide the fear is to be angry because fear will expose you. Anger will create a curtain around you; you can hide behind anger."
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- an excerpt from The Goose is Out, authored by Osho -
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Is this really how you want to really live your life? To use anger to hide fear? Or to brave the fear, face the truth and be healed?