An Impromptu Outing

The plan was to have dinner with the girls in Subang. Then in the morning, my dear guardian angel reminded me that it was her birthday and that she requested if she could have dinner with her friends. I agreed with no hesitation because I did promise her that she could have dinner with her friends somewhere nearby some time ago. So there it was, a promise kept and another broken.

Since hubby was also home, he suggested at 6pm if we should have dinner in 1U. I was elated!! It has been a long time since we have been there and it used to be my favourite hang out place before we moved to KK! So we got changed and after dropping the guardian angel at McD's, we headed towards 1U EXCITEDLY!

We wanted to try something new, instead of eating the same old things at the same old restaurants. So we walked into this Pasta Zonmai. Japanese Pasta. Not bad!

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I had a soft shell crab handroll wrapped in Tortilla instead of seaweed. Delicious! Hubby had some pasta with clams and Thea had (believe it or not!) rice with curry chicken!! She only finished halfway. I think she likes it, but then wasn't really overwhelmed by it either.

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This is a moment of hubby carrying Thea up and kissing her.. haha

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After dinner, we walked around 1U. As usual, I went to Locitanne. After all a shopping quickie, we went to get ice-cream. Hubby wasn't too keen on us having ice-cream in the car so we sat on the bench opposite Gelato Fruity (where we bought our ice-cream) to finish off our ice-cream. All the shops were closing and this was indeed the first time witnessing the shops closing one by one!

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This is the ice cream parlour. Only 4 flavours left for us to choose.

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This is Thea, leaving chocolate ice-cream traces on her lips... sighs...

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What a wonderful evening spent with hubby and Thea!! The best part was that it was not even planned! It's nice having home cooked meals at home (twice a day, I must add!) but sometimes some spontaneous outing like that is equally fun! I remember that we hardly did the 'impromptu' thing eversince we had Thea because we were always so worried about her food, if she'd be comfy and all.. but now that she is growing up, it is much easier to move around spontaneously! I am sure she had fun too! More to come, Love-Love, just you wait and see how fun you mommi & daddi can be! *winks*

Pleasant Miracles

Today I received an email from a stranger who immediately became a friend. Her willingness to share her experiences with me on her sessions with Hari touched my heart immensely. I felt very much overwhelmed with love & gratitude.

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In fact, this is the second email that I've received with regards to Hari's sessions. The first one enquired the hows & whats of Hari's sessions. I hope I had provided sufficient support for her first session of healing.

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What dawned onto me were moments of joy, love & gratitude. It was as if I'd served my purpose. I was moved to tears in my own space. I don't know what I had done to deserve or to attract such emails (although there are only 2 of them to my personal emails and several comments on the blog) but I am thankful for my courage to pen down my expressions of love and gratitude, and Navitha's intention to spread the word.

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I don't know what has happened, and I don't really want to define it because it is in truth, unexplainable to the heart. If any explanation were to be done, it would be too limiting for the mind to comprehend.

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A few days ago, I had a conversations with J. It went like this: -

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My hearted called out, "Let me do Your work." i.e. God's work.

I heard His voice, "You are already doing God's work."

Followed by, "only sometimes the EGO gets in the way."

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Did J really say that? I don't know. But it seemed that the 2nd sentence of "only sometimes the EGO gets in the way" did not really come from Him. It sounded more like the mind mimicking His voice.

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The whole night, I felt His presence, His Love; and then I understood that He has always resided in my heart.

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I don't know what I've done. I don't know if I have a purpose. But I know that as I consciously live my life, every 'do' or 'say' frees me further from the bondage within. And as I free myself, it seems that I have 'freed' others too. I have been taught, it is called 'Collective Consciousness'. Then let me serve as an Instrument of Love & Peace as quoted by St. Francis of Assisi, to do God's work. And when I speak of God; I am speaking of the God within.

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Miracles do happen; whether big or small. Every moment of life is already a miracle unfolding itself. Experience it, my dear friends. You will find fruits to your 'labour' of doing & undoing.

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Namaste.

Guilt

It's amazing how Guilt can ruin a person's day. All derived from a 'want' or 'don't want', indecisiveness, options and mainly stories created in the mind.

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All of us feel guilt towards people and situations. Sometimes we face it by admitting our vulnerability; but mostly, we blame it on others whenever we are unable to face the guilt within; or at times, we seek approval from others just to justify that there is no need to feel guilty. The truth is, if the guilt is there, it is already there - and nobody can 'remove' the guilt within, or 'shift' that feeling until you come to terms with it and find out its source.

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Tuck Loon always quote what Jesus said, "the idea has never lost its source" and "you are never really upset for the reason you think it is". Perhaps he quoted more, but these are the 2 that are running in my mind now.

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So why do the mind create stories for the feeling of guilt to arise? I don't know. I asked him today, "when will we ever be fully awaken?" and he replied, "forget it. Go back to sleep."

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Strangely, the mind did not see that as a relief. Could it be that the mind has been working so hard at being awaken, and now to be asked to go back to sleep would then mean going back to old patterns of who's out there? I don't know.

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I have been faced with a situation. My heart tells me something; the mind tells me another. Clearly, it is time to make a conscious decision. Which scene would I joyfully partipate in? Here or there? Am I willing to give up an opportunity for where moments of joy, love and happiness already exist; or do I give myself an opportunity to be accepted and loved in another for it to exist? Choices. Choices. Both will be filled with guilt. "Why must there be guilt?" you might ask. You are not me, you wouldn't know; likewise, I am not you, I can't be like you.

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Perhaps, deep within, I am still yearning for that chance to belong; which is illusional. And perhaps, deep within, I am afraid of that opportunity because I don't want to be where I won't be reminded of who I truly am. Where I already know where love exists, there's acceptance and no pretence. No need to be careful of what I say or do. Yet, do we always shy away from situations which can serve as opportunities? But then again, it is not my day. Only that I do wish to be there to give my blessings.

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Next question, do I really need to be present in the ceremony to give my blessings? Do they not already have my blessings? Again, who needs my blessings? Oohh.. that unworthiness thought!

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So where am I? Back at the source which is already an effect of something deeper. It sucks. Because now I have to dive into that unworthiness to find out another cause to that effect; which may very well be another effect of another cause.

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Thank you, Guilt. I see you and I will work on it. Thank you.

My Ice Cream Treat

Headed to Swensens. Delicious...

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On the way there, I stole some shots of Thea.

Full potential to be a pilot like her dada! And she'd definitely make a huchi one too! :D

Mommi & Thea

Thea's ice-cream

Hubby & I shared this ice-cream.

This was the first time I was trying out a different sort of ice-cream, i.e. ICE-cream on a HOT plate. Amazing how creative these people were. A thought arise. I always stuck to my old fashion 1 or 2 scopes of ice-cream of various flavours and this time I took the chance to try something different. I enjoyed it. I would have missed out the pleasure of enjoying this ice-cream had I decided to continue to be conservative in my choices.

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Moral of the story: Don't be afraid to try out new things, because no one other than you would be missing out on something that you might actually enjoy.

Creamy Fish & Mushroom Pie

I was feeling really moody today. Don't know why. I think I must have got up from the wrong side of the bed. Haha! Just really really moody... don't feel like talking, don't feel like going out, don't feel like doing anything.. you get the meaning right?

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So came 5 o'clock. I can't escape it. Last week, I'd outrightly announced to hubby & the guardian angel that I will be cooking dinner on Wednesday night (tonight) - Fish Pie. Recipe is from Classic Fish Cooking by Linda Doeser. So I gotta do it, if not; we'd have no home cooked dinner.

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I dragged myself to the fridges to get the ingredients that I've prepared since Saturday. Everything there. Perfect... only that... gosh, the doubts of actually doing this... A PIE!!! Damn challenging. Nevertheless, I stuck to my word. And the guardian angel, being an angel; stood by me 'just in case' I needed assistance or her support. Truly a gem. She helped to sift the flour, peel, wash, cut and boil the potatoes ;p

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What I taught would be a quick fix (seriously, how long can you take to bake a pie right?) ended up to a total preparation + baking till finalisation of 2 hrs++. Maybe it is because I am new, I don't know.. but I kept referring to the recipe again and again, just to make sure that I got it right. I was even doing hand movements of pouring the milk to this, stirring, mixing this and that in thin air while the angel just stood beside me and smiled. Yeah, I know.. it must have been a funny sight.

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So, the result was this: -

Creamy Fish & Mushroom Pie

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The angel and I actually thought that Thea would not eat it. But she did.. she loved the mushrooms! And hubby had 3 servings! To be honest, I was actually doubting if it was actually THAT delicious. Yup, it was :), except that perhaps it was a little too creamy for me. Well, I guess they don't call it CREAMY fish & mushroom pie for nothing!

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And guess what, I will be rewarded. Hubby will be taking Thea & I to SS2 for ice-cream later tonight. Yummy... Can't wait!