What is Wrong?

After my haircut, lots of people came up to me and asked me, 'Why did you cut your hair?', 'What made you cut your hair?', 'Did you go through something that made you cut your hair?'

It's amusing. Then I remembered that new hairdos are usually associated with a change or a new beginning after some drama had happened. They call it, Hair Therapy.

So, just to share why I had a hair do: -

1) colour of hair was wearing out, needed new colour.
2) curl serum ran out.
3) weather is hot.
4) takes a long time for hair to dry at night (I usually wash the mane at the night) and it disrupts my sleep.

Seriously, it is as simple as that.

New Bloggie Address

I've finally managed to transfer relevant entries of 'the Mind' category into a new blog - http://journalingtruth.com/; dedicated to myself and for those who resonate with my previous entries of the Mind. If you had like this category of entries, I would like to extend an invitation to you to drop by the new bloggie address instead.

Just decided to keep this space a little less serious. :)

Nothing serious.. just a haircut

Cut my locks today. Coloured it too. I think I look good. ;p

Bestie did the same thing today although in a different saloon. No cut 'cause she has no locks, but trimmed. Good enough. And coloured it too.. ;D

The Egoic Cycle

This is existence is as such, at least on this plane. We want the success, the joy, the happiness, the excitement hence we had inevitably 'agreed' to accept the failure, the pain, the sadness, the fear; in our experience. To understand this is to see through the veils of illusion. To see through this illusion, is to finally understand that they are merely different sides of the same coin. To see though the coin, is to come to peace with it. And that peace too, is an illusion at another level. For in peace, there exist too, a space of non-peace. When peace as an illusion is finally understood, then there is impartiality.

But this impartiality, also comes with its imitation versions. It is the 'none of my business' illusion. You see, the ego will never want you to have it easy. To the unwise, 'none of my business' is merely an unconscious attachment to peace; a wise 'none of my business' understanding is where whatever that arises; the ups and the downs; the recognition of impermanent nature. The recognition of impermanent nature, is understanding that the 'none of my business' illusion consists of no "I" or "you" or "him". There is nobody there. Just impermanent nature. As what Sayadow has mentioned, "it is all just a misunderstanding".

The whole consciousness is egoic on its own. The human realm thinks that they are in trouble, and then they call upon teachers and others realms for help. But who are their teachers and those from the other realms, but their own imagination, another form of egoic existence.

Not that there is no Truth. Not that there is no enlightenment. Not that there is no teacher or guide. But they are not meant to be put on a pedestal, nor an altar. When we unconsciously idolize them, we are then again separated once more. Only we don't remember, what we are here for. As shared in Matrix 2 - you have already made your choice, you just need to understand why you made it.

I need my husband, my husband needs me; I need my children, my children needs me; I need my job, my company needs me - all egoic; albeit in its own sense. Albeit in its own sense; all the same trap. In truth, no one needs us, and we don't need anyone. We only think we do and they only think they do. We like to think we are heros, we are important; we like to think that we have heroes too, that we have people important in our lives. So we are forever like little children. No wonder we will always have a 'father' and a 'mother' and later on be a 'father' or a 'mother'. No matter how much we try to deny it, it is in all of us. Even if a person is not our biological parent, or our biological child, there comes a point in time where we play that role anyway.

So are we important at all, we ask ourselves? Surely there must be something I can do. Yes, yes, we are all important! But surely you must know that it is not in the meaning that you have thought it to be. But what else is there? We hear ourselves ask. Seek and ye shall find, but be forewarned because there will be no turning back.

Do I know? I do not know. The ego would like to arrogantly say 'I DO!' and also unworthily say 'I don't..." So do I know or do I not know? The Spirit already knows, so what is there for the ego to know? Why must the ego know but to satisfy its needs? And what needs are those, but to strengthen the meaning of "I".

Could it then be possible that there is just knowing.. with no "I" in it? I don't know..

Ah, but you see.. there is still an "I" in it... Soon I will realise that I can never get rid of "I". But the "I" can be transformed or rather, transcended as what my teacher say. As long as we are no longer succumb to the automated mode, we are already making progress and deserve a pat on the back. Oh dear, so it looks like you are here to stay...

So who is this "I" which I think "I" am? Actually, just programmes in the mind which I had mistakenly thought it was - I.

Not to know I know is Peace

If I truly know what I think I know, then there must be peace.

So if there is no peace, then I must not truly know what I think I truly know.

For what I truly know will only result in peace.

And for that, I must know now that what I think I know is not what I truly know.

But if I were to truly know, how will I know unless I think I know?

Could it be that by the time I think I know I had already truly known but now no longer know?

Then what is it that I think I know or that I truly know?

Such ridiculous irony! It's best just not to know!

Yes, that's right - not to know that I truly know, so there will be no barriers for growth.

To conclude that I think I know, I block my own way path.

To conclude that I truly know, I limit my own expansion. 

So what is the importance in this knowing or not,

Nothing really except my own meaning to it.

Soon we find that information of freedom can too bind us,

But all depending on one's choice of attitude; either one of grace or one of grip.

What is knowing? But only a bundle of thoughts.

So knowing is not as important per se,

But the peace that allows me, that what which is meant to stay.

Because in that peace, all that is needed is unconditionally fulfilled.

Namaste.