Thursday, April 30, 2009

A little about Wisdom

Wisdom is achieved very slowly. This is because intellectual knowledge, easily acquired, must be transformed into 'emotional' or subconscious, knowledge. Once transformed, the imprint is permanent. Behavioural practice is the necessary catalyst of this reaction. Without action, the concept will wither and fade. Theoretical knowledge without practical application is not enough.
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Balance and harmony are neglected today, yet they are the foundations of wisdom. Everything is done to excess. People are overweight because they eat excessively. Joggers neglect aspects of themselves and others because they run excessively. People seem excessively mean. They drink too much, smoke too much, carouse too much (or too little), talk too much without content, worry too much. There is too much black-or-white thinking. All or none. This is not the way of nature.
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In nature there is balance. Beasts destroy in small amounts. Ecological systems are not eliminated en masse. Plants are consumed and then grow. The sources of sustenance are dipped into and then replenished. The flower is enjoyed, the fruit eaten, the root preserved.
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Humankind has not learned about balance, let alone practiced it. It is guided by greed and ambition, steered by fear. In this way it will eventually destroy itself. But nature will survive, at least the plants will.
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Happiness is really rooted in simplicity. The tendency to excessiveness in thought and action diminishes happiness. Excesses cloud basic values. Religious people tell us that happiness comes from filling one heart's with love, from faith and hope, from practicing charity and dispensing kindness. They actually are right. Given those attitudes, balance and harmony usually follow. These are collectively a state of being. In these days, they are an altered state of consciousness. It is as if humankind were not in its natural state while on earth. It must reach an altered state in order to fill itself with love and charity and simplicity, to feel purity, to rid itself of its chronic fearfulness.
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How does one reach this altered state, this other value system? And once reached, how can it be sustained? The answer appears to be simple. It is the common denominator of all religions. Humankind is immortal, and what we are doing now is learning our lessons. We are all in school. It is so simple if you can believe in immortality.
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If a part of humankind is eternal, and there is much evidence and history to think so, then why are we doing such bad things to ourselves? Why do we step on and over others for our personal 'gain' when actually we're flunking the lesson? We all seem to be going to the same place ultimately, albeit at different speeds. No one is greater than another.
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Consider the lessons. Intellectually the answers have always been there, but this need to actualize by experience, to make the subconscious imprint permanent by 'emotionalising' and practising the concept, is the key. Memorising in Sunday School is not good enough. Lip service without the behaviour has no value. It is easy to read about or talk about love and charity and faith. But to do it, to feel it, almost requires an altered state of consciousness. Not the transient state induced by drugs, alcohol, or unexpected emotion. The permanent state is reached by knowledge and understanding. It is sustained by physical behaviour, by act and deed, by practice. It is taking something nearly mystical and transforming it to everyday familiarity by practice, making it a habit.
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Understand that no one is greater than another. Feel it. Practice helping another. We are all rowing the same boat. If we don't pull together, our plants are going to be awfully lonely.
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*Excerpts from Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss, M.D.*
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Thanks T2, for recommending me such a wonderful book to read. Love. :)

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The SMS

I was happily doing our routine round of groceries at Tesco when I got an sms from Navithar of IRAH. It said, "Dear friends, kindly checkout this blog http://gerrymoon.blogspot.com Title of article My Lessons with Hari. Please forward to all your friends. Good day. :)"
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My jaw literally DROPPED! The thoughts in my head were, "OMG, Navithar! What have you done?????" I initially wanted to text Navithar the exact same words, but I remembered; so I stopped a moment to ponder on why I was uncomfortable with sharing my blog. Afterall, to have entries on blogspot is already public, so why was I uncomfortable with her inviting more readers to my blog?
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I shared my sentiment with hubby when he read the sms. He smiled and said, "that's good, honey." I guess my expectations of an answer was not going to be met. So I waited till when we were getting ready for bed before I shared with him how I felt - confused.
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He reminded me why I started a blog. I admitted that initially I started a MSN blog because I just wanted to vent out my feelings within my circle of friends whom I trusted (I limited my MSN blog to certain friends). And then I moved to blogspot.com because I wanted to *ahem* make some money through the adgoogles (so far, I've made nothing!). He laughed. After he caught hold of himself, he reminded me of the numerous times that I've always said I wanted to share and reach out; and what Navithar did was merely helping me to spread my sharing. I knew that. But that did not exactly uplift me of my confused feelings.
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As I was continuously speaking from my heart, the answer came - I was afraid to be acknowledged. It's like.. I want to be acknowledged, and yet afraid of it. Hubby gently nudged, "could it be that, you fear that once you are acknowledged, you'd not be able to meet up to other people's expectations of you? But you see, there is no other's expectations that you need to live up to. You just be yourself." I was amazed by his level of wisdom by now... but he was right. And that freed me. Our deep conversation also later on revealed other beliefs that I had within which caused my feelings of confusion. I was freed. And I felt great gratitude to hubby and myself for marrying such a wonderful and wise hubby to support me in my journey.
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You must be wondering. What has acknowledgement got to do with the entry and my blog? Precisely. Nothing. And yet my mind wonders off... "aiyo... I am the one ohhhh... how arr... can ka???" Nuisance, silly mind I've got there...
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This lesson taught me something. My unwillingness to receive gratitude and acknowledgement. My stepping aside from the unconscious mind to assess the conscious mind once again also helped me understand better the initial intention of my sharing of Hari. The intention was about Hari. It was to share about Hari's love for you and me. It has never really been about me when I wrote that entry. I had all the necessary information of Hari to feature him on the website that I'm writing for; and yet, I had decided against it for 2 reasons. The 1st is because of my respect of his wishes and the 2nd is because whatever that I would have written about him based on the information that he had lovingly shared with me would never, ever do justice to who he truly is at all levels. But I'd still wanted to write something about Hari - and so I was left with my own experience with Hari, with Love.
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So the previous entry is about Hari, for Hari and for you. And this entry is about me, for me - because a lesson I have learnt.
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Thank you, Navithar - for without your willingness to spread the love of Hari to humanity, my reaching out about Hari would have been limited. For your willingness to spread my sharing, I wouldn't have learnt this lesson - my fear of receiving, being gratified and meeting of others' expectations. Thank you for bringing me clarity about what I still need to work on within me.
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Oh yes, and thank you darling hubby - for without your patience and your willingness to just listen and share; it might have taken me a longer time to acknowledge and work on this part of me.
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Love. :)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I've GOT IT!!!!!!

I was wondering when I would ever get my camera. Last night, Jon messaged me through FB and told me that dad asked me to get my camera and to pass him the receipt. I was getting excited! When hubby came home from mamak with Paul (I was already asleep then), I smiled and told him in my sleep, "honey, tomorrow we go get my camera together ok..." See la.. in my dream also I think about it... hahaha..
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So after breakfast this morning, we headed towards Fotokem in SP. I told Ah Wai (the shop assistant) that I wanted to see SX1 IS, SX10 IS, G10 and SX110 IS. Clearly, the first 2 that I suggested was too huge for me to carry around so I didn't really explore it though they looked beautiful. So I concentrated on G10 and SX110. I don't know why, I was literally drooling... it was as if my saliva was dripping all over.. now I know what it feels like.. to be presented with things that ticked my heart... It was splendid.
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Obviously, the G10 was a better model. But I was also considering the SX110 because of its price and my amateur level. But Tuck Loon did say something that made sense - whatever camera that you have, you will learn how to use it. And hubby was definitely more interested in the G10 although he voiced out that he will respect my decision since it is MY camera... I text Gladys, sharing with her my saliva dripping over the G10, and she replied, "Buy." And so I did. I was like a little girl presented with a beautiful doll which I have been dreaming of... (though this doll is actually BLACK in colour.. hahaha) I brought home with me a Canon G10. On the way home, I could feel the excitement in me, still.. wanting to take out the camera to play with it, toy with it, explore it...
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I will be heading off soon for a karaoke session with the girls in 10 minutes. I told Gladys to bring her SLR to take picture of my baby so that I could post in on my blog. I can't wait... this joy and rejoice that I have, I can't explain it - Gladys text and said she could feel my happiness! I am sure, because that would have been how she felt when she got her SLR. :)
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So I am going off now... ya, I know I ought to charge the battery first, but I really can't wait. I want to satisfy this thirst of excitement (as how Gladys put it) first and worry about the battery later. It will serve me well.
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Till then... oh... G10... my new baby... in cloud 9 d... ;p

Monday, April 27, 2009

My Lessons with Hari from IRAH - Home of Healing

I had a session with Hari today. What I had hoped would turn out to be an interview, was actually more of an "inner view" of him, and also me.

My first meeting with Hari was sometime in September or October, 08 I think. I had marital problems then (or so I thought!!) and he helped me understand what was, in reality happening. Although I already knew that I had a part to play for my seemingly troubled marriage then, he pointed several issues that I needed to look inwards more deeply - to love myself. It's amazing how my heart is now swelling with gratitude and love for Hari as I recall my several sessions with him. For he has pointed me to a direction that I had forgotten to look into - LOVE; Love always starts from witin me. If I didn't love myself, how could I make myself available to love others? Did you know, Love Heals? If you didn't, well, now you know. :)

I subsequently discovered my gifts - or so many would call it, my level of wisdom, my 'real' age, who I really am, why I am here and etc.. and this journey - oh, this simple yet complex journey of self discovery, of Truth - sometimes it makes me crazy - the challenges, sufferings, pain, anger - crazy all because I've stopped playing the blaming game. There is no one to blame but me. I would remember Hari telling me - they are all you, a reflection of you. As long as my finger is still willing to point at someone else for my pain, I am only condemning myself further, burying myself deeper of what I am not willing to look within myself. This, besides crediting myself for the hardwork, Tuck Loon, Lai Fun (through MSP), Angeline and Christopher Moon played major roles in this part of my journey of looking inwards. What to do with the pain? Hari says, "Surrender!" :)

At this stage, Hari also shared with me about oneness. When I first heard the word, "one with God" from Hari - it felt as if it was a familiar yet distant statement. And today's session, I learnt some more from him. I shared with him that sometimes I felt inspired to be a healer (note: I am actually on a journey of interviewing healers, teachers and lightworkers for a website - will announce later) each time I see one, and yet... that is not my calling. Well, it's not that I don't want to be a healer - it's just that I don't want to be one without clarity. It's the mind that we need working on, not the physical body. The physical body is just temporary - and yet, I am not suggesting that we shouldn't take care of our body; just not to be attached to it. Tuck Loon always said, it is ok to have things - as long as you are not attached to it. And Hari said the same thing today. He said, "it is ok to want a BMW, and soon, you will realise that it is not about having the BMW, it is about the journey to getting the BMW. And it is ok that you get bored with it too, you just surrender it and get another type of car! It is the journey of having that BMW, that when you have it, you'd know that you are God."

I know, it's quite absurb for most of us to agree that we are God. I remember Alice telling me how she freaked out when Hari told her that she is God. And although I can relate to her frustration of not understanding it, there was a part of me that knew that Hari was right; because God is in all of us. The bible says, 'Our body is a temple of Gods'. Do you believe it? Do you think, the fact that you almost always get what you want is really because you are His favourite? Well, how do I put it... yes, and no. EVERYONE is His favourite! You get what you want is because you are the creator of your own reality; as the Law of Attraction recites.

One thing Hari said today that touched me was, in one of his conversations with God, God said, "all My Creations love at least one thing in their life, unconditionally." It reminded me of the many criminals and crooks we see on movies. They can be as mean or heartless as how we perceive or judge them to be, and yet there'd always be that one thing; one person that they each hold deeply in their hearts - be it a dad, mom, spouse, partner, friend, child or even a pet... it's still Love.

And it is with Love, that Hari does his work. I've met him only 5 times so far (including today), and I doubt that it has totalled up to 24 hours. Yet, I am aware of this profound deep love I have for him. And I know deep down, he loves me too. As ironic as it may sounds, he loves you too - you just don't know it.

There is too much I'd like to share about Hari and what he has taught me. Words and space are really just limiting. When he rejected my request to interview him, I didn't understand and had thought that perhaps it was me that he didn't want an interview with; or perhaps he was just shy and wanted to remain low profile. But when I found out the real reason why he had lovingly declined my request, I was touched - and the reason is still Love, with Love.
Thank you Hari, for being here with us. Thank you, for doing this work for us. Thank you, for pointing me to the direction of the Truth, lovingly with detachment. I am forever grateful for the unconditonal love that you possess for each one of us here.
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For those of you who would like to meet Hari for a healing session, please visit http://www.irah-healing.com/ for more information. Healing is by donation. Please also visit http://www.loveheals.com.my/. I am not sure if Hari has a part to play in this website, but I know that this website was created by 2 beautiful angels who assist Hari to do his work.
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Blessed Be, Be Loved, Be Love - because Love Makes It Happen (quoted from LoveHeals website).

Friday, April 24, 2009

The Camera Search

So the news was out - it's missing. Don't know when, don't know how but dad said that he would compensate, although it has not been proven that his action was the actual cause of my losing my beloved camera.
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I went on a search since last night when he said that I had 24 hours to decide what I wanted. I didn't really know what he meant by that actually - whether I wanted compensation or not; and if I did, whether it to be in cash or a brand new camera. But I went on a search anyway because since the camera is missing, I had to find myself a new camera anyway.
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I was thinking more of Canon because Aunt Mandy works there and could get staff price for me. I was exposed to the IXUSes - 85IS (my previous model), 90IS and 100IS. The 100IS was beautiful and fully automatic. And then I remembered Gladys mentioned about Panasonic Lumix. Didn't really like it. Then the man at the shop had to introduce me to Ricoh R7 & R8 because I mentioned that I wanted to play with the camera. You see, I have come to this stage when I want more than just a whole picture, I would like to capture the beingness of the object, the essence of the picture. Don't know why. So I was toying around with the Ricoh R7 & R8 and obviously found the R8 a better one to play with. It was really value for money too - except that the outcome of the picture; or rather the colours of the picture are not as compact or bright as Canon's. I left the shop more confused than ever. Only 2 brands of cameras and I am already going bonkers - I wondered how the professionals handle these options!
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So I called Gladys. Chatted with her and An and at the same time, did my own research. Gladys was right, I am still a beginner and it would be quite an uphill task to try to explore an SLR. She suggested the semi pro models and Tuck Loon sms back and said the same. So, semi pro it is! An mentioned that this is also called Prosumer? So I started exploring Canon PowerShot models. The SX200 IS caught my eye; but Gladys said that the SX110 IS was good enough for me and was within my budget (approximately RM949 since the market value of my old camera is about there). The SX110 is RM1,228 while the SX200 is RM1,680. Quite a diff huh? And then An suggested the G10. I went bonkers - AGAIN!!! The G10 cost RM2,068! Good specs but Gladys said that it would be too bulky for me and one of the things that turned me off was that it only had 5x optical zoom where else the SX110 had 10x zoom. The SX200 was even better - 12x zoom! However, the SX200 apparently does not produce as beautiful outcome as SX110 (despite the fact that SX200 is a later verson than SX110!). I don't know how this is possible since everything else in SX200 is better than SX110 but I guess I have to trust An since she is the expert! So she did a round of checks for me on SX110 and the reviews were good - ONLY that... it operates on AA batteries (which Gladys warned me about earlier too). Actually I forgot about the AA batteries which Gladys mentioned and as I got all hyped up about the SX110 IS, it was like a slap in the face again that it operates on AA batteries. GOSH! CAN'T I FIND ANYTHING PERFECT?!?!?!?!?
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So the 24 hour dateline was over. And I thought, hmm.. nevermind, I guess at least it gives me time to decide what I really really want and to research some more on other brands of camera since Canon was limiting (Thanks An for highlighting to me!). And just as I was looking through the specifications of the various Canon cameras (AGAIN!), hubby came home. I sat him down and updated him of my confusion. He laughed and agreed that we should just go ahead with the SX110 despite that it operates on AA batteries because it could be a blessing! "Eh, we can get batteries anywhere at any time you know! Besides, the pros all use AA batteries one!!" he said. That was enough to help me make up my mind. I knew what I wanted already.

The Chosen One - Canon SX110 IS



And coincidently, my dad was still texting me about the camera! So I took the opportunity to tell him that I wanted the Canon SX110 IS which cost RM1,228. He replied, "So cheap to me lah, sup sup shoi and yet you take so long to make up your mind. I just feel like scolding you but not today because not many thing can go into your brain which is still choked and clogged with a lot of rubbish." Damn! I should have asked for a more expensive camera! Hahaha.. Well, he's right; my mind was choked and clogged.. not so much with rubbish as what he sees (anything that is not money making is rubbish to his mind); more like cameras, cameras and cameras.. a new found interest in my life. :)

So SX110 IS... Until you are in my hands... I'll be holding you in my dreams... Good night...

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

The MISSING Camera

Some time ago, someone came to my house (while I was still in dreamland) and took stuffs out of the WAJA (the car that my dad loan me) and replaced it with my youngest brother's car, the HONDA. Since this was quite a norm, I didn't really bother about it as long as all the essential itesm were taken out of the WAJA such as the smart tag, sunglasses, Thea's favourite CD and so forth. However, there was this day that I was frantically looking for my camera and could not locate it, then a thought hit me - it's in the dashboard of the WAJA! So I called my brothers and my dad. Dad gave me an earful saying that I should clear all my things and blah blah blah... I didn't argue with him since I didn't know who was the one who cleared my things - I just couldn't speak any truth so I left it as it is. I resorted to borrowing my brother, Jon's camera for use until he needed it back for his Bali trip.
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I decided that I wanted to get to know my camera. Last tuesday, Gladys and I were having a chat about cameras and she explained that sometimes our camera are unable to take nice photographs because we ourselves are not familiar with the functions of our own camera. I agreed to that fact and made a mental note to get back my camera so that I could get to know how to manipulate its functions.
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So today, I called my dad's ex-principal to whom the WAJA was bring loan to. He said that he will check and just about 20 minutes ago, my dad called to confirm that the camera is not there and told me to check with my brothers. Both my brothers explained that they were not the ones to clear the items from the car and hence, leaving the only possible person being.. yes, my dad! So I called him back and told him of the facts I knew. He grumbled a little and said that he will look into his drawer to see if my camera is there. I was like... "HUH?????"
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Well, whether it is there in his drawer, or someone has taken it from the car - GOD KNOWS! But if the latter is true, it looks like it is now time for me to source for another camera to serve me. Gladys suggested that Lumix (did I spell this correctly?) was a good point & shoot camera to invest in. Well, we'll see.. otherwise will consult my aunt who works in Canon. I was toying around with my own phone camera earlier and found the pictures taken amazing. Jon also told me that he found photos taken from his phone camera better than those from his Canon camera. Maybe it is a SONY thing??
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Anyway, I guess besides a new camera, it is also time to get a magic mirror of my own so that I could ask, "Magic Mirror on the Wall, who is the culprit who took my camera?!?" ;p

Thursday, April 16, 2009

20 Hours with Terry Kreitzberg

Hubby and I met Terry at Rebak Island IN the resort's swimming pool (yes, while swimming). There was this 16 year old girl who suddenly talked to me (I can't remember her name but it starts with an A) in the swimming pool and since she was talking to Terry too, I thought that he was probably her dad. He wasn't. Same as me, she just started talking to him! She was a very interesting girl - no boundaries of strangers and just followed her heart to connect with anyone who crossed her path. It was amazing.

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We started talking (Terry and I initially before hubby joined in). We found out that he was the first pilot of FEDEX, retired and is now a sailor. He sails on his own boat, Sora all the way from the states (he's American) to Malaysia. It was amazing how it all connected because the resort that we stayed at was next to a marina with beautiful boats; and just the night before, hubby and I admiring the boats at the marina when we took a walk after dinner. And then we dreamt of owning a boat of our own someday to sail across the sea... with the dolphins, the fishes, the sunsets... Nice hor? Anyway, it was as if God hear our prayers and viola! Appeared Terry! We chatted and chatted about sailing IN the swimming pool, shivering until it was time for dinner and then we never met Terry again for the rest of the evening. I remember asking hubbt that night why hadn't we ask for Terry's contact details so that we could be in touch with him. He just shrugged his shoulders.
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So we checked out the next day. While waiting for time and resting at the library near the lobby, there walked Terry again!! We waved at each other, and started chatting again! He invited us to his boat and introduced us to his lovely wife, Karen. It was awesome just listening to all they had to share about boats and their sailing experiences albeit the short time. So we did exchange emails and numbers before we left Rebak. It was truly memorable.
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We kept in contact via email and soon enough, facebook. I was absolutely delighted when Terry messaged to say that he needed to get out of Phuket (he sailed to Phuket for Christmas after we left) for a visa run and had decided to come to KL! Hubby and I were so excited about him coming down that we started to plan where to bring him for food and etc (we heard he liked to eat :))!
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So yesterday was the day - 15th April 2009. He arrived at 3:45pm and we picked him up. It was great to see him again and we could tell that he was also excited to see us. We went to Makan-Makan for tea and ordered "cham" and yam cake for him. (Terry, in case you can't remember what "cham" is coffee + tea). He absolutely loved it. After tea, we headed home. He said his hello to Thea and brought her a bubble gun toy. She absolutely loved it! And he gave me a lemongrass salt scrub and body lotion. I absolutely loved it too! (Seriously don't know when I became so vain.. hahaha) We hung out at the garden and he was patting Dobby (my rottie) away. Chatted, chatted and chatted... awesome awesome company.
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Dinner time came. We headed for 'Under the Tree' Bak-Kut-Teh in KK. We ordered soupy bak-kut-teh, dried bak-kut-teh, vegetables and otak-otak (I told Terry the direct translation was brain-brain... hahaha). Hubby and Terry bought beer to accompany dinner from across the road before the dishes came. Oh yes, forgot to mention - I invited my youngest brother, Inro to join us. I don't know why, I just wanted to introduce my brother to Terry. So, Inro and Prissy came along :). Needless to say, Terry totally enjoyed the dishes. He kept on saying, "good choice, guys! good choice!". I was glad.
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After dinner, we went home. The boys (hubby, Terry and Inro) continued with drinks while I walked up and down trying to fiddle a few things in between hanging out with them. I think I finally settled down with them a little later. It felt so comfortable just talking to Terry and I dare say that on behalf of hubby, Inro and myself (Prissy went home). We talked about sailing, to flying, to airlines, to airplane crashes, father-daughter relationships (he has 2 daughters), money, health supplements, today's quality of food, asian food, western food, sheep, lamb, goat/kit (just to differentiate what is lamb and mutton :{), driving skills and etc... it was a night full of non-stop sharing. If it was not because hubby needed to sleep, I think we could have gone on and on and on...
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Morning came (today - 16th April 2009). We left the house for Sri Mayuri for breakfast. Since we were talking about mutton curry last night, we ordered roti telur, mutton curry and neslo (Terry, this means Nescafe + Milo) for him. It was really good to see him enjoying the food. I don't know about hubby, but I enjoyed seeing him wallop the food! Unfortunately, we had to head towards the airport because his flight was at 12:45pm. We told him, the next time he comes down, he MUST stay for a few days in order for us to bring him around to other food heaven. There is so much more food to explore in Malaysia! I hope he was not joking when he said yes. Hahaha..
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The non-stop talking did not stop until we arrived at LCCT. There was a kind of strange feeling to see him go - as if wishing that he'd stay longer accompanying the understanding that he needed to go back to Phuket to see his boat gets fixed (Sora is docked for repairs - it's a routine thing which takes a few months). During the journey to the airport, he told me, "Gerry, please write me an email about what happened yesterday and today so that I can reinforce it in my memory." I told him not to worry because I had every intention to blog about this anyway. I remember him saying this again and again, "Thank you guys, this is very special.".
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Terry, we want to tell you that it is very special to us too the 20 hours you spent with us. We appreciate and value your presence in our country, humble home, and especially in our lives. It is somewhat strange how we connected just like that. We look forward to many many beautiful moments and experiences with you. 20 hours is DEFINITELY not enough :).

Monday, April 13, 2009

Fast & Furious 4

Honestly, I am not that into cars. When hubby said he wanted to watch this movie, I said ok but with resistance. One part of me, I wanted to please him; the other part of me, I was really dreading it.
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So came today, I told him we go watch a movie. He found out the timing for Confessions of a Shopaholic and F&F 4. I took my time to shower because I was very full from lunch, and surrenderred to whatever movie we could make it for.
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We arrived at Summit. Believe it or not, during the car ride there, I told him, "Honey, is it ok that you watch F&F4 and then I watch another movie?" He asked me why and assured me it was ok if I wanted to watch another movie and that he'd watch it with me. I declined that offer because it'd make me feel guilty.. :(
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Anyway, we went ahead with F&F4. Before the movie started, we were walking around and I was so aware of the resistance that I had watching that movie! Why? Honestly, I don't know.. I guess it was because I was not really into cars and was afraid that I'd be bored! Anyway, I told myself mentally that I ought to remain open minded and just see what happens for me.
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And you wouldn't believe it.. only 10 minutes after the movie started, my heart was about to jump out of my chest!! It was that "chee kek"!! My eyes were glued to the screen, mouth munching tidbits and sipping water in between.. it was incredible and I totally enjoyed the movie right till the end!! Hahaha... I was so glad that I did not give in to my resistance!! Hmm.. that egoic mind of mine!!
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After the movie, I told hubby that I give thumbs up to the movie and that I would make an effort to watch the 1st, 2nd and 3rd series of F&F. He laughed and said, "I told you so!" It was nice.
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Don't miss it! Although a no brainer, but certainly one hell of an entertainment!
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On a separate note, I think I might have not gave my full review on Heroes Season 3 because I just realised that there were more to the marathon that I watched that fateful Sunday. Will try to catch the rest and update soon. :)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Freezing Correctly

Came across an article in the magazine which gave advice on how to freeze correctly. I thought it was good to share what I've learnt so here it is, just for you... :)
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Freezing food is a good way to save time in the kitchen. Freezing preserves food for extended periods because it prevents the growth of micro-organisms - bacteria, yeast and mold that cause food to spoil. However, improper freezing can change food texture and taste, or even more, just spoil it outright. To keep your food safely frozen, follow these 8 tips.
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SIZE UP YOUR CONTAINER!
Choose a suitably-sized container according to the quantity of food. A small amount of food stored in a huge container traps a lot of air, increasing the likelihood of freezer burn or food deterioration. Poor quality containers can cause changes to food texture, taste and flavour when defrosting and causes food to spoil faster. The trick is to freeze with as little air as possible and to keep all moisture and water in.
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FREEZE SMALL PORTIONS
Pack food in small or individual portions so they freeze quicker. This ensures a higher quality product when defrosting making it easier. The FreezerMate range (from Tupperware brand) has a variety of sizes to ensure food is frozen in the portions required. Small items will also defrost quicker, which helps save time.
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PREPARE BEFORE STORING
Most vegetables are best blanched (immersed in boiling water) as this halts enzyme action. Raw vegetables with high water content like lettuce, celery and choy sum don't freeze well as they are vulnerable to damage from ice crystals. Meat should be jointed and excess fat removed. Some foods can be frozen as they are. Others may need liquid added or certain ingredients removed until after defrosting.
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FREEZING LIQUID
Liquids expand upon freezing. So leave some space in the container. It's recommended to leave up to 2 inches for a litre. When using FreezerMate just fill up to the indicated line. This allows sufficient room for expansion.
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PLAN AHEAD
Consider how food is going to be cooked or reheated once defrosted. Unbaked pies can be frozen in ovenproof dishes so you can move them straight into the oven. Likewise, foods that will be reheated or defrosted in the microwave should be stored in microwave-safe containers like Rock 'N' Serve.
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COOL FOOD BEFORE FREEZING
All food must be cooled completely before going into the freezer because warm or hot food can cause the freezer's temperature to fluctuate and rise. This may affect other food and the food you're about to freeze.
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If the temperature rises above 0 degree Fahrenheit (-18 degree Celsius), foods that are already frozen could defrost slightly and then refreeze, leading to deterioration.
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KEEP IT FROZEN
Once a product is frozen, it should stay frozen and not undergo changes in storage conditions that affect quality when defrosting. Fluctuating temperatures lead to freezer burn, which may destroy food.
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The cooler the food that's about to be frozen, the quicker it freezes. Foods that freeze rapidly are not structurally damaged by the freezing process. The quicker food freezes, the more moisture, vitamins, texture and flavour it retains. FreezerMates are specially designed with thin walls to allow fast-freezing.
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COOL IT QUICKLY
Food intended for freezing should be cooled quickly and safely in the refrigerator or in a sink/bowl of ice water, which should be changed frequently to ensure quick cooling. Best not to cool food, especially poultry, seafood, eggs or meat at room temperature. This causes bacteria to multiply and food to be contaminated and deteriorate rapidly.



On a complimentary note, Tupperware is having promotions this month on the FreezerMate range. Please feel free to call or email me to enquire. No obligations. :)
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And on a personal note, I find this range really useful and practical - my food stay fresher for a much longer time. My freezer has not become not only neater, but I also find that not much ice is trapped when I use Tupperware. Before this when I was using the normal tupperware or the those plastic ones (the ones that restaurants give us when we pack food), ice just accumulates on the food itself. Could also tell that it isn't that airtight hence ruining the quality of the food. Anyway, just my 2 cents. Have a great Sunday! Cheers!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Thank GOD for Enhanced Road Warrior!

Oh this is it! Last night I came home from class late and guess what hubby told me.
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"Honey, thank God you bought the towing insurance thing! I have bad news.. there is water in JayDee's (our alfa romeo) engine and Tan (our mechanic for JayDee) said that he cannot drive the car to his workshop because it may damage the engine even more! So we need the towing services!"
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I was truly amazed by how fast he turned around and how God had allowed an opportunity like that to make him realise that I wasn't "that" unwise in my spending! haha!
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Anyway, I called the toll-free number. They said they'd be here in half hour and then after that I can head to the market with Lex.
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Thea woke up early this morning to follow me to the market. I wanted to go to the market before the tow truck arrived but my maid said that it is likely that I might not make it back in time. So I went to my little baby and told her,
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"Thea... the black car is spoiled. We are waiting for uncle to come pick up the car to get it fix. So we will go to the market later after that ok?"
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She looked at me and innocently said,
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"How about we use dada's silver colour car?"
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"Yes, we will be using that; but we need to wait for uncle to come to the house to take the black car to go fix first. Is that ok with you?"
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She paused for a while, smiled and nodded,
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"Ok mommi... then after we take the silver car to go vege and yellow bananas!!!" - she absolutely loves bananas!! hahaha
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I wrote an email out to friends about the Enhanced Road Warrior and am quite disappointed with myself that I am unable to reach out to people to get themselves insured for this policy. It is such a useful policy for those who has a car and yet... well, nevermind... it's their business and I ought to respect them. I just need to take care of myself.
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It's 9:00am now. The tow truck came and went. All within half hour and my writing this entry. Efficient. :)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Remaining Open to Love by Paulo Coelho

This is a dedication to those in a relationship (be it good or bad - your own definition), leaving a relationship (for good or bad - your own definition) and not in a relationship (could be good or bad - your definition). Blessed Be.
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There are times when we long to be able to help someone whom we love very much, but we can do nothing. Circumstances will not allow us to approach them, or the person is closed off to any gesture of solidarity and support.
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Then all we are left with is love. At such times, when we can do nothing else, we can still love - without expecting any reward or change or gratitude.
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If we do this, the energy of love will begin to transform the universe about us. Wherever this energy appears, it always achieves its ends. 'Time does not transform man. Will-power does not transform man. Love transforms,' says Henry Drummond.
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I read in the newspaper about a little girl in Brasilia who was brutally beaten by her parents. As a result, she lost all physical movement, as well as the ability to speak.
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Once admitted to hospital, she was cared for by a nurse who said to her every day: 'I love you.' Although the doctors assured her that the child could not hear and that all her efforts were in vain, the nurse continued to say: 'Don't forget, I love you.'
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Three weeks later, the child recovered the power of movement. Four weeks later, she could again talk and smile. The nurse never gave any interviews, and the newspaper did not publish her name, but let me set this down here, so that we never forget: love cures.
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Love transforms and love cures; but sometimes, love builds deadly traps and can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give him or herself completely. What is this complex feeling which, deep down, is the only reason we continue to love, struggle and improve?
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It would be irresponsible of me to attempt to define it, because I, along with every other human being, can only feel it. Thousands of books have been written on the subject, plays have been put on, films produced, poems composed, sculptures carved out of wood or marble; and yet all any artist can convey is the idea of a feeling, not the feeling itself.
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But I have learned that this feeling is present in the small things, and manifests itself in the most insignificant of our actions. It is necessary, therefore, to keep love always in mind, regardless of whether or not we take action.
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Picking up the phone and saying the affectionate words we have been postponing. Opening the door to someone who needs our help. Accepting a job. Leaving a job. Taking a decision that we were putting off for later. Asking forgiveness for a mistake we made and which keeps niggling at us. Demanding a right that is ours. Opening an account at the local florist's, which is a far more important shop than the jeweller's. Putting music on really loud when the person you love is far away, and turning the volume down when he or she is near. Knowing when to say 'yes' and 'no' because love works with all our energies. Discovering a sport that can be played for two. Not following any recipe, not even those contained in this paragraph, because love requires creativity.
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And when none of this is possible, when all that remains is loneliness, then remember this story that a reader once sent to me.
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A rose dreamed day and night about bees, but no bees ever landed on her petals.
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The flower, however, continued to dream. During the long nights, she imagined a heaven full of bees, which flew down to bestow fond kisses on her. By doing this, she was able to last until the next day, when she opened again to the light of the sun.
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One night, the moon, who knew of the rose's loneliness, asked, 'Aren't you tired of waiting?'
'Possibly, but I have to keep trying.'
'Why?'
'Because if I don't remain open, I will simply fade away.'
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At times, when loneliness seems to crust all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.
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*Excerpts from Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho*

The Baby has ARRIVED!!!


Yes, you read right! Our baby, Lex, has arrived!! I made a morning call to the dealer and asked when would it be likely that we could collect Lex so that we could arrange our time and viola!! He called at about 12pm and told us that we could pick up Lex at 1pm! Hubby and I were so so excited!!! We left heading towards Hicom after Thea's class.
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When we arrived there, his heart went bidibip-bidibop... hahaha.. so cute.. he was really thrilled. He drove home his dream car.
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Well, after mendling with Lex for a while (as if caressing her!! hahaha), he has left with Lex for a golf game.
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Have a enjoyable drive hubby.. you surely deserve it! :D

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Very oddly, the number '6' kept on flashing to me after we collected Lex. I immediately knew that the Angels were trying to tell me something. Before I started this entry, I saw a feather... it was definitely a sign...
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The number '6' says, "Release any fears about the physical/material world to God and the angels. Balance your thoughts between the material and spiritual."
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Thank you for the reminder, dear Angels.. :)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

FYI Updates

There are 2 things I wish to share.
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1st thing to share
Last night when I was having dinner with hubby, he blurted that he felt neglected on Friday night because he waited for me to come home early from dinner with the girls. I explained that I chose not to come home earlier because he would have slept early anyway and I would have been alone so I chose to hang out with girls instead. Besides, I was having too much fun with the girls to have the night end so young! He smirked, but then smiled and said, "but luckily you made it up by cooking dinner for me today." I burst out laughing!!! Hahahaa.... hubby was so cute.. although I'm quite sure I didn't cook because of an intention to make up to him, I am certainly glad that I made him feel better by cooking him dinner. He said that dinner was delicious...
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2nd thing to share
Went to Chezz with Pauline today. I had never been there on my own but with hubby assistance on reading the map and Terri's mention of KFC @ Sea Park as landmark (when she wrote that in the SMS, I nearly fainted because I don't know where KFC @ Sea Park was) helped. Of course, the latter helped more after I've managed to be on the right road from KK! Thanks Terri :D.
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We were there at about slightly before 2pm. Rebonded the top portion of my head (touch up) and re-coloured my whole head. Pauline did only treatments. Guess how long it took me. From the time I was there, with the hair washes to the treatment to the rebonding to the colouring to the hair cut (I requested for a fringe cut) to treatments again to the final blowdry - I left the place at 6:45pm. It was a loooooooooong day for me and it was quite boring too because I had no one to talk to (Pauline didn't talk much because she was busy texting Jon on the phone & left to do some shopping at the nearby shops while waiting for me to finish). Yes, I brought my book and read some titles but.. you know, it's just B-O-R-I-N-G!
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But then again, it was worth it... my hair is sooooo soft and nice..... hahahahahhahaha I LOVE IT!
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Anyway, I am home and blogging... hehehe.. this entry has no purpose. I guess I just needed to share the 1st thing and vent and brag on the 2nd thing. Cheers! ;p

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Honey Garlic Roast Chicken with Mash Potatoes and Salad

I don't know what's gotten into me lately. The thought came and I just acted on it.
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Last night after I came home from my night out with the girls, I had a thought of cooking dinner the next day - which is today. I remembered Su telling me that there were drumstick thighs in the freezer so I made a mental note to cook that for dinner. This morning when hubby kissed me good bye before he left work I told him blurry in my sleep but with a smile that I was going to cook dinner tonight. He thought I was talking in my sleep! :)
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I took out the drumstick thighs this morning when I woke up. Waited for it to defrost and started marinating the drumstick thighs with honey garlic sauce (left over from CNY), additional garlic and mixed herbs at about 3:30pm. I had another thought that since we had french fries too many rounds before this perhaps I should try to make mash potatoes this time instead and the first person to consult was of course, the Kitchen Goddess - Alina. :)
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I text her and since she was out, she referred me to one of her recipes in her blog (please check out http://alinagracekitchen.blogspot.com/ - great recipes there though I am too chicken to try them out myself). Ok, so I got it. And then I got confused by it, called her but she didn't answer, and then called Terri for help. So now, I get 2 recipes with the same ingredients but with pretty different methods to do it. So how now? I trusted my instincts.
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It was DELICIOUS!!! I absolutely loved it and hubby said it was tasty too!! (ok, ok.. I know that it is pretty easy to make mash potatoes but it is my first time ok!!!)
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So, this is how the preparation dish looked while waiting for the drumstick thighs to be roasted: -
All lined up - Fresh salad and the mash potatoes on the side

And this was when the drumstick thighs were still roasting in the oven: -

Preheated oven at 220 degree Celsius for 20 minutes and roasted for 20 minutes at same temperature.

And the result,

If you are wondering why I am only exploring roast chicken... hmm.. to be honest, I thought about this too... perhaps they are the easiest recipes to find the necessary ingredients. Honestly, I don't know myself. I did try fish the last time and must give credit to myself for that. Hubby said that I could try lamb or beef the next time. Hmm... good suggestions... but will I have the courage?

We'll see. :)

Night Out with the Angels (are we still?)

Me, Terri & Gladys
Taken at CoffeeBean, Genting - My 26th Birthday, 2003

I had a good day today. Started with Cheng Beng in the morning with my dad, brothers and Thea, followed by an interview session with Heng & Maylin. The interview session was really long, but I had fun getting to know them. I would have so much to write about them.
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I was running a little late because I left Oneness late and made a wrong turn. Thankfully, no one was 'mad' at me when I turned up at Bodhitree. Both of my dear friends, Terri and Gladys were already there.
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We had many many 'light meals', a main course which we could not finish, a bottle of wine and a pot of flower tea. Honestly, I don't know how we could have stuffed so much of food in the little stomachs of ours. But we almost finished the food.. and absolutely finished the wine and the pot of tea! :p We had a great time talking and laughing and chatting. A-hem, I don't know what was so funny or got into those two - they laughed till they teared!!
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After dinner, we walked to Coffeebean, shared a drink - courtesy of Terri. And guess what we talked about most - the subject that the two found most boring - insurance, mortgages and investments. Seriously, they were the one who asked about the subjects and then ended up yawning as I explained to them! Now come to think about it, I find them both so cute and am laughing to myself as I think back of those 'trying hard to understand me' faces... hahahha..



Gladys, Terri & I
Ya.. we were absolutely crazy about each other then ;p

They are a gem, each in my life. I think I've loved them since the day I met them. We used to call ourselves Charlie's Angels. We were young and full of life. But also because we were all growing up, we had to learn our lessons with each other and also walk our own journey for lessons to be learnt with other people. We faced many downtimes with each other - suppression of our true feelings, judgements, taking sides, being entangled with each others' issues and oh.. so many of them.. and yes, we did fall out of favour with each other occasionally. But really, were we angry with each other, or just ourselves because we couldn't handle our friendship any better, any wiser? I don't know.. but that is not important anymore. Because as far as I can recall, moments with them were always wonderful and worth the while, eventhough some moments involved our own vulnerability.
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We each have our own life now. But it feels so good tonight because we are able to blend in again with each other, like the good old times; except now with a little more wisdom and a little more understanding of the self and each other. I can't speak for them, but I had a splendid time with them, because they were they; and I was I. And now I recall again that it was them that had always encouraged me to be me. I love them, because they were and are still my teachers to guide and show me I ought to love myself and accept myself. Imagine.. the lesson started so long ago, and yet it is only now that I've learnt it. And I am grateful for their patience with me, for their willingness of still wanting to be present in my life. And even if they had ceased being my teachers in that area, I would forever be grateful to them for their presences and friendship in my life.
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Thank you, Angels... no matter what we turn out be, you will always be my angels. I love you.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

The First Service - Oracle Card Reading

Today I am no longer a virgin in oracle card reading. I did a reading for a new friend whom I didn't know of her life. I told her that after that reading, I will most likely forget whatever it is that I interpreted because those information were for her anyway, so no point of me being attached to it. I reminded her to try to remember whatever that I said that could guide and help her, because I may not be able to repeat them again.
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It took about an hour plus. If it wasn't because I had to pick up Thea from TT, I think we could have had lunch together. But the whole process was good for me. It was a platform for me to share my gift and to help her understand the support that she was obtaining from the Divine. And for that, I received my first token as an exchange of energy in kind. Thank you Lilie for allowing me to be your instrument to connect to your Divine Guides. :)
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And thank YOU, for the blessings of this journey.
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Blessed Be.