Triple Filter Test - The Secret of Sharing Information

In ancient Greece, Socrates was reputed to hold knowledge in high esteem. One day an acquaintance met the great philosopher and said, "Do you know what I just heard about your friend?" "Hold on a minute," Socrates replied. "Before telling me anything, I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Triple Filter Test."

"Triple filter?"

"That's right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my friend, it might be a good idea to take a moment and filter what you're going to say. That's why I call it the Triple Filter Test.

The first filter is Truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?"

"No," the man said, "Actually I just heard about it and..."

"All right," said Socrates. "So you don't really know if it's true or not. Now let's try the second filter, the filter of goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my friend something good?" "No, on the contrary..." "So," Socates continued, "You want to tell me something bad about him, but you're not certain it's true. You may still pass the test though, because there's one filter left: the filter of usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my friend going to be useful to me?" "No, not really." "Well," concluded Socrates, "If what you want to tell me is neither true nor good nor even useful, why tell it to me at all?"

Favourite Word of the Day - 'Buy!'

Alina and I had a date today. :) I went to fetch her at about 3pm and we arrived at 1U at approximately 3:30pm. When I entered the carpark using my OneCard, the balance was RM12.00. When I left the carpark, it was RM1.00!! :-o  Lols.

We went on a shopping spree. Erm, more like her.. lols, but with a purpose. She was about to start work in a new employment next month and needed new shoes and suits. Each item that I saw her looked marvelous in, I just smiled and said, "buy!" Lols. She repeatedly labeled me 'evil'! She also helped me choose two night dresses which I have been wanting to buy for quite some time after that. I am so glad to have someone's opinion to guide me in my acquisition. Lols. One good thing about shopping with girlfriends is that they are able to tell you what you look good in, and keep an eye out on things that you had missed. I loved one of the dresses that she saw and asked me to try. I bought it after two tries - when I found the right size. :) Did I mention, she bought four pairs of shoes (her record was six pairs in a day) and this was within a span of approximately more or less, an hour! She has a thing for shoes.. lols.

We walked alot today. It was a sure way to exercise, so that made our dinner at Chilli's not so guilty. Alina, we forgot to order DESSERT!!!! lols. We had to as we had to rush with the limited time we had to buy a gift for her friend's son's birthday tomorrow morning. I bought some stuffs too at the same shop. Like I said, we were BOTH on a shopping spree... lols.

During dinner at Chilli's, we talked and talked and talked while we ate. Ok ok, I will admit it, more like I talked while munching dinner because I had to brief her about the Twilight Saga. While we were walking to the old wing earlier to find some suits for her (and boy, were there many beautiful ones at Edmundser!!), we passed by TGV. The 'New Moon' standup poster which was screening today caught my eye and I simply said, "I really would like to watch this movie." and she quickly replied, "come, let's go watch it!" I turned around and looked at her in shock, "YOU WOULD WATCH IT WITH ME??????" she nodded happily and said, "yes!! I love movies!!" I was in a natural high! I just could not resist and quickly agreed to the impromptu agenda! We bought our tickets before dinner and since she was quite unfamiliar with the whole Twilight saga, I briefed her slightly over dinner in the hope that she'd be able to grasp the movie better when we watched it later. I didn't give her much details though, only enough to let her understand what happened in the first series of Twilight and what would happen in New Moon. And then she excitedly asked me about the third & forth series, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Lols. I could not hesitate to tell her more... but again, not in too much detail, just the essesnce. There were just too much to share!! Lols. And after the 'story-telling', we talked a lot more about other books by other authors and other things. It was really awesome to exchange information with each other like that. :)

As we sat down in the comfy seats of GSC at the most front seats of the cinema (seriously, they were the only ones left :{ ), I felt the excitement! It was really thrilling. Alina was really into the movie, awing and reacting to the contents of the movie. It was sheer pleasure to see that she was enjoying the movie as much as me. Although I would have to say that the movie ended a little more abruptly then I had expected, I was glad I witnessed the final product of it, especially with a good friend, at Gold Class some more.. damn pampered hor? Lols. ;p

When we finally left 1U, it was almost midnight. Amazing how we had spend approximately 8-8.5 hours at a mall together! The last time we spent that long a time together was about 10 or 11 years ago. I would drive to her place and hang out with her for the whole day or she would drive all the way to my house (she was living in Ampang and I was living in Klang then) just to hang out with me for the whole day. Those were great memories and it is even greater now that after so many years of friendship, we'd still be able to enjoy each other's company like today.  :)

I truly enjoyed every moment with you today, Alina. Thank you for this wonderful day, and for your unconditional presence in my life. Love you very much... :)

Family Constellation Workshop with Dr. Wilfried Nelles

It was with intention that I signed up for this workship, with the blessings from hubby (he sponsored! ;p). It was held for a period of 3 days at Pearl Point Hotel. It was amazing. I think there were more or less 30+ participants. Most were locals, some from Hong Kong and some from Singapore with a pretty healthy spread in age group too.

I was already quite familiar with the family constellation methods so it was not difficult for me to 'fit in' in a constellation. A constellation is basically a lay out by representatives (of people) of a family system, to witness and observe what lays deep in the subconscious, or at soul level as some may call it. And each constellation is unique on its own - bearing their own story behind every wound that was brought to surface. So someone goes up there and says, "I don't know why, I always feel that I am not accepted anywhere..." or "I am not successful at work" or etc etc, only to find out through the constellations the entanglements he or she has with her parents or even ancestors as a child. In the best of my knowledge from the learnings of the previous constellation workshop which I had attended last December, a child already loves his or her parents before they are born and are willing to take on anything that his or her parents do not see. Hence the symptoms of sufferings such as unstable relationships, problems with money, diseases and illnessesn apply to the children. So in a constellation, where the representatives are 'led' to move through their own surrendering, the real story is then revealed - that means, that whatever that needs to be seen and accepted is then surfaced. It is amazing process. During the process, the representatives are then guided to resolve the conflict in the constellation. While some constellations were not possible, but most ended in peace and harmony. Having witness and participating in quite a few cases resulted in deeper understandings and compassion within me for others. The constellations sort of peeled off everybody's mask - to their true inner emotions, something that most of us suppress and sweep under the carpet. It was like, stripping naked in front of a group of people, especially to ourselves.

Dr. Nelles shared during the workshop that we need to be with our emotions. Having said that, he also clarified that it doesn't mean when we are angry, we go blaming other people or ourselves. It is more of being aware of this feeling, and allowing ourselves to feel the emotion, be it anger, guilt, sadness and so on. Many are afraid that if they do allow themselves to fully feel these feelings, they would drown in them and never come out of it. On the contrarary, Dr. Nelles explained that it is until we feel the peak or extreame of these emotions, then we'd be free from it. He explained this, "We are not anger, we are not fear, we are not our emotions; but we identify ourselves with it." He advised us to develop an awareness to watch our emotions, whether they go up or down. The rest comes along with it naturally as long as you stay with the emotions by allowing it without judging it. As soon as we resist it and turn away from it, it reveals itself by coming from the back (something like 'belakang mari') through the people around you. How relevant to BB;s sharing on Mindfulness. Dr. Nelles also said that we have to recognise that when the emotions arises be it whatever situation, it is not us who are upset but the wounded child in us. And the wounded child in us ARE us when we were small, when we didn't know any better... and since he/she did not know any better, we cannot push it (the emotions or the wounded child) away. We need to be with the wounded child, to let them know that we, the adult is here.

I truly had an amazing journey these 3 days. I can't speak for anyone else though. Although most of the participants spoke in Mandarin and my Mandarin was only so-so, it was cool to be able to mingle with a different crowd of people.

Being able to participate other people's cases as their representative also assisted in my own healing. The emotions, wounded part and the story behind it was oh so similar. It was as if it was my story too... Dr. Nelles explained that usually when we are picked as a representative or vice versa, it is so because we carry the similar energy. For that, I am grateful that I am not only able to assist in another's healing process, but also of my own.

Much appreciation to Dr. Wilfried Nelles for his sharings during the 3-day workshop! And much appreciation to Heng & Maylin too for bringing Dr. Wilfried Nelles to Malaysia so that the rest of us could learn more about ourselves through the work of Family Constellation. :)

You could google Family Constellation to find out more! It's really interesting work. Have fun! :D

By The Way Dinner :)

I attended a workshop somewhere near Penny's place today. Having the workshop written down in my dairy for ages, and the coincidental call from Penny (or was it me who called Penny?? :{) a few weeks ago, I agreed to pay her a visit during one of the days of the workshop. It was today. :)

The first thing that they 'served' me with was their wedding videos - one after another and a cup of water. I never really watched a couple's entire wedding video (except my own) before, so it was really quite a night. The videos captured many moments which I was present at the event, triggering wonderful memories of Penny & Siew's wedding day. We had dinner inhouse ordered from the clubhouse. It was laughters and comments all the way... lols.

I truly enjoyed my time there.. we chatted for quite a while until I remembered that I had to head home to see my little gir before it was too late. They walked me down to my car (they live in a condominium). So sweet of them, huh? Unfortunately, Thea was already asleep by the time I got home and I am now waiting for hubby to come home while typing this entry. Miss him la... just have to see him, give him a hug and a good night kiss before I rest for the time. ;p

Much appreciation to Penny & Siew for a wonderful night. Penny said that she would take a day's leave sometime next month so that we could go spa together.. ah... so looking forward to that already!!

Sweetie dreams...

Alicia & Danny

Alicia & Danny

Yesterday's tea ceremony in the morning was absolutely fun. The buddies of the Groom (Danny) were really good sports and the 'sisters' of the Bride were cheeky but also kind.. lols. Imagine, have you ever heard of any 'sisters' at any wedding apologising to the buddies during the games part? Lols. It was like, "I am sorry, I am sorry.. is it really spicy???" It was realy hilarious.

What touched us most was the vow we requested for Danny to write for Alicia. He did not even have to hesitate. He took the piece of paper and pen from us and immediately wrote his piece as if he already knew what his heart had to say. It was truly touching. Unfortunately, Danny lost his voice and since it was Alicia's request for Danny to shout his vow to her (she was locked in the room), Danny's buddies did this bit on his behalf. It was truly touching, because in the midst of it, Danny teared, hearing the the echo of his heart's wishes with Alicia. Some of us teared too, too touched and overwhelmed by the scene until we totally forgot about the 'ang pow' part and willingly unlocked the door let him in the room where Alicia was, for their 'reunion'. They were so happy to see each other. It was in their eyes, the deep love they shared for each other. It was quite a sight. :)

The wedding reception was an equally beautiful experience for me too. With Alicia's permission, I arrived slightly later but not late enough to miss her entrance. She looked so stunning and gorgeous, and most importantly, happy. The group of us were seated very close to her so that we could see her and she could wink at us! Lols. She can be quite cheeky and funny when she is not serious. Lols.

Wishing you, Alicia & Danny, many many joyful moments of togetherness! May you two always enjoy the weekend coffee together... :) Looking forward to Texas Holdem at your place next year already...

Alicia's Hen Night

Well, it's not exactly a Hen's night per se. What I understand of a Hen's night is an all girls' night where they make the bride-to-be do some silly stuffs just before they get hitched. Lols. I never attended any of these kind of events, so I don't know if what I've described is right. But it was a get-together tonight, of Alicia's good friends and I am blessed to be one of them.

I arrived at Prince Apartments at 6pm. My initial plan was to meet up with Terri earlier but then I had to cancel my plans with her because Alicia sounded a little stressed-out about the wedding preparations from our earlier conversation so I decided instead to be by her side to support her in whatever way that I could. I guessed that a wedding, especially when handled singled-handedly could be pretty stressful.

She looked really happy to see me! Like wise, I was too. She took me up to the Residence suite that she was staying and allowed me to help her do some stuffs. I was later introduced to her relatives. Very lovely people who offered help to Alicia in any way they could too. Being Alicia, she only wanted her guests to relax and enjoy the stay (they are from outstation) and the wedding day. She continuously assured them that all is taken care of at the same time, picking up the phone making arrangements to ensure that her relatives' needs were met. She is just so nice and considerate. Despite how tired she was, she still put on her best smile and humour. :)

We had dinner with her sister and her best friend, Gowri. It was fun just discussing the games that we were going to get the guys to participate in when Danny (the groom) and his buddies come in tomorrow. We laughed a lot. And when Donald arrived finally, the company was complete with even much more happiness and laughters. We talked a littlle about the old times when we went for a walk by the pool side. It felt good laughing at old times, reminiscing the our younger days together during our 2-weeks study trip in Australia. So much fun we had then, and so much fun and appreciation we have now to be able to recall such beautiful memories together. I truly enjoyed my time with them.

I can't wait to see them again tomorrow. Although Donald will not be able to join us tomorrow morning for the tea ceremony due to work commitments, but Ri7 and Oli will be there and it will surely be a joyous occasion witnessing one of our old friend's auspicious day. We will have a great time tomorrow night again, as we always do.

My heart is filled with joy and appreciation today, and I am glad to be able to go to bed tonight with a smile on my face. :)

Night night and happy dreams...

The Farewell

Today is officially the last day of school for Thea. TT had a farewell party of fun games, singing, dancing and food for the kids and invited the parents to attend the kids' fun 'Graduation' ceremony. It was really fun seeing the kids walk up the 'red carpet' to receive their 'certificates'. Lols.

Although some parents (including myself) are excited in sending our kids to another school next year, more like advancing to another level, there is a part of all of us who feel that we'd miss this. Imagine, I am not talking about the kids, but the parents.. lols. Looks like the parents have bonded too, which is a good thing.

Thea made so many beautiful friends in school, and I've made friends with their (Thea's friends) mommies too. They are really a fun bunch, though I don't hang out with them as often as they hang out with each other. They laugh all the time. Really!

Amongst Thea's friends, there is this special girl that she talks and spends most of the time with in school. Everybody notices it. The teachers, even the parents of other kids. Her name is Joelle. Thea and I decided that we would get a gift for Joelle for the farewell so that in case they could not meet up as often as they do now, the symbol of the gift would always help them to remember each other.

Last week, we (Thea & I) bought a photoframe with the words "Best Friends" craved on the frame. This was the exact same photoframe that Alina gave me years back for Christmas, except a little bigger in size. Remembering this experience brings sweetness to my heart. :) And, I remembered that during one of those times where I brought Dad's 500D to Thea's class and started snapping away, that there was a picture I took of both of them together (Thea & Joelle), I picked that picture, developed it and carefully placed it in the picture frame that Thea and I picked for Joelle. Together, we wrote a card to Joelle too. It said,

"Dear Joelle,

TQ for being my friend.

Love, Thea Wong"

We included our contact details so that Joelle could always stay in touch with her whenever she wanted to. It would really be nice. :)

During the drive back home from school, Joelle's grandmother called me and expressed how nice it was of Thea to give Joelle something so sweet (the photo + photofrane). And she told me, "Joelle is so happy and said, 'Poh-Poh, I don't miss Thea anymore because I can see her everyday!!'" It was really so, so sweet. Even, Joelle's grandmother was touched, I could tell.

These two little girls, at such a tender age. The begining of a friendship out of nothing-ness, and the farewell necessary for a reunion some day - actually, it could just be a day or two, or a week or two... Lols. I guess they will have to get used to not seeing each other so often in a week. Lols.

I am so grateful for being able to witness the friendship between Thea & Joelle. Their friendship, so innocent, pure and genuine touched my heart. They remind me of all my other friends whom I had shared a bond with during certain periods of my life, and then we bid our farewells for some reason or another (graduation, migration and etc etc). And then I remember once again, these friends and I have never parted for whatsoever reason because, what remains in the heart, stays in the heart. And when a friend stays in our hearts, how could we have been apart?

No distance could ever separate what is in the heart. Nothing could ever separate what is Love.

Reclaming Self

Yesterday was really a turbulent. It was a mixture of shame, sadness, anger, hurt, love, appreciation, support and encouragement. I purposefully worded out the negative emotions first because I understand that it is these emotions which are usually more overwhelming then the others in anyone's world, including mine. But when I sit down, and recall the many comments of support, love and encouragment instead (although not put forth in the comments section of the particular entry), I then become overwhelmed with appreciation and love.

I questioned my inner world if these were the reflections of my mind. While I acknowledged some fears were valid, I did not understand others. I asked if this was a sign to stop writing, if I wasn't doing any good to others, especially myself. But the messages I received with love was not it, and I knew that this was an obstacle necessary in my journey to break free from the many other bondages the mind held. I could take the easy way out - either to stop writing, or to limit myself expressions in the writing if I could not contain the passion; if I wanted approval. I am aware that I am not seeking for approval; neither is my wish to run away. Running away would only deter me further from what is there for me to reclaim of myself - the false ideas of the self and to forsake the True Self which has always been present, whole and complete.

Since completing the Stephenie Meyer's 'Breaking Dawn' when I couldn't sleep last night, I was inspired to pick up Paul Ferrini's 'Embracing Our True Self' this morning. It was a birthday gift from Angel. I have yet to touch the first chapter, but as I read his preface earlier, it encouraged me further that my choice to deal with the 'crisis'es or triggers in my life are the way to go. That is, to face it head on, instead of sweeping under the carpet, and that can only be done (in my way of practice anyway) through mindfulness, being aware of what comes to me.

I share with you here, the excerpts of Paul Ferrini's preface in his book 'Embracing Our True Self': -

"... the necessity of healing of our deep childhood wounds as a prerequisite for understanding who we are and what we have come into this life to do. It makes it clear that we cannot meet our True Self until we heal our trauma, correct our erroneous beliefs about ourselves, and dissolve our reactive behaviour patterns.

     Our healing process helps us realise that in order to meet our True Self, our False Self must die. This ego death experience creates a psychological and spiritual crisis in our lives in which we are asked to surrender our ego agenda and meet our fears head on. It invites us to get in touch with our core wound and heal our shame and unworthiness.

     To grow, we must go through this crisis. We have no choice. The old ways of living no longer work for us. We know we have to stop allowing fear to run our lives. We know we have to stop betraying ourselves. We can no longer live the life that others want for us. We can no longer live out of sacrifice or guilt. We have to let go of all that. We have to risk being ourselves, regardless of how scary a proposition that is."

*Excerpts from the Author's Preface of Embracing Our True Self by Paul Ferrini*

So many beautiful beings have appeared in my hologram for this lesson, and I am grateful for it. "Love always call you back" I remember Hari telling me this once, and I know that I cannot give in to this self-betrayal. So what if some people have misunderstood my sharing and judged me through their perception of my entries. It does not matter. Because ultimately, that does not define me. What triggers me, is mine alone and my responsibility to clean up the mess.

A lot of people go through self-help programmes or sessions with facilitators and they think that they are fully healed. I'd say that they are healed from what they are aware of. How about those that are hidden in the subconscious, which are surfacing everywhere around us but we are unaware of? How could one be completely healed unless one who knows the Truth, and the absolute Truth. I explained to a dear friend yesterday, that an inward journey is like renovating a house. It takes time. Some takes 2 weeks; good for them. Some takes years, and even lifetimes. If not, compassionate beings would not return as Masters, lifetimes after lifetimes, to share the Truth, to support our journey to the Truth.

I go through life just as everybody else do. Just because I respond differently and express myself not in the same way that anybody else would do, doesn't mean I am any different from anyone. I just chose to do it in a way that doesn't restrict me, that frees me. I just chose to do it in a way, that empowers me.

And what I can share from my experiences and realisations of my lessons, my journey is that as I identify the layers and layers of false ideas of who I think I am or who others think I am, I grow a litte bit more with love, appreciation and gratitude in my heart. I begin to enjoy my relationships with my parents, my siblings, my hubby, my child, my teachers, my friends even, even more. I begin to enjoy my relationship with myself even, even more.

Another beautiful angel, Kavitha text me last night,

"Known is a drop, unknown is an ocean. It's the known drop that you are sharing with everyone. There is no wrong or right, people will receive what they are ready for..."

Love always call you back... how touched I am as this sharing from Hari echoed in my mind, again.

Thank you, wise teachers and loving angels. I will continue to hold the fort.

Mirror

The good you find in others, is in you to.

The fault you find in others, are your faults as well.

After all, to recognise something, you must know it.

The possibilities you see in others, are possible for yourself as well.

The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.

The world around you is a reflection,

a mirror showing you the person you are.

To change your world, you must change yourself.

To blame and complain will only make matters worse.

Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.

What you see in others, shows you yourself.

See the best in others, and you will be your best.

Give to others, and you give to yourself.

Appreciate beauty, and you will be beautiful.

Admire creativity, and you will be creative.

Love, and you will be loved.

Seek to understand, and you will be understood.

Listen, and your voice will be heard.

Teach, and you will learn.

Clarification

I've just realised that not EVERYBODY would understand my basis of sharing on my blog. Some think that it is good sharing, some think that it is the journey of a person on her spiritual path, some think of it as washing dirty laundry in the public... And of course, there is always this counter argument that 'It is MY BLOG!'. Right?

But you see, I don't see it that way. While my entries do serve in a way as a 'diary' to me, if you have to call it that way, it is a reminder to me, and to others (if I am lucky) of an inward journey.

I know that sometimes I write aimlessly, directing no where of a day's outing, a day's experience. But most times, I consciously write from my heart, as a channel, an instrument to share what I've experienced, what I've learnt. I guess sometimes I forget that not everybody is on their inward journey, as I am. It is easy to forget especially when all that happens to me, happens for me. And I find that usually, as I start typing my entries, the answers do come along the way. How my guilt had overwhelmed me, yet freed me. How I was unsure of things that were happening (or more rightfully, the mind projecting), the ideas churning behind it. It's all in the Mind.

Many people think that they are their minds, they associate so closely 'I think', 'I feel', 'I', 'I', I''... but who is the 'I' but a story. And due to the constraint of time and space, or perhaps my lack of faith that people who'd actually sit down and read what I had to truly share about what I had learnt about the Mind - it'd bore them to death, or shy them away. And that's, not what I would want.

I've been guided to share, to write. I guess this is one of the best gift I am blessed with albeit the lack of accuracy in grammar or the volume of vocabulary. But I try. From the bottom of my heart, I do try. I choose to share my experiences instead of writing in more generic terms because I am aware the people receive messages in stories better. Would you read a self-help book, or a storybook? After reading Stephenie Meyer's books, I'd dare say so myself it is the story that makes it addictive to keep me flipping the page. In a self-help book, it is addictive to me when I am looking for answers. And I do have answers. But I lack the ability to express it in the way the authors' do. If I could, I think, perhaps I'd be rich by now.

I can't say I know a lot. But I do know enough for now. And what I share in my entries, if one was in their own inward path, would understand (or at least, I hope) that there is no one out there that could make him or her, or ME for that matter upset, happy, angry, joyful, sad or at peace. When a Master says, 'it's all in the Mind", although there is some truth in it, but it is not exactly the way you think it is. Do you even know where YOUR mind is? And if you are aware of the Mind, then are you aware that You are NOT your mind? We keep on saying, "my mind" because we are responsible for it. Same like a child. He or she IS your responsibility and duty to educate and nurture, but he or she DOES NOT belong to you. If he or she did, you'd seriously be in deep trouble! Ok, that was a joke! Lols.

Just a start. Notice in yourself if you usually play a victim, rescuer or prosecutor role to yourself and others in your life. When you tend to 'help' someone, are you helping that person or are you helping yourself? Could you see that, you feel 'bad' or 'upset' that a person was in trouble, and that when you 'help' that person, that person feels better, and you'd begin to feel better too? Have you noticed that in yourself? I have. That is what we call it the Triangle Prison. And by that, I do not mean that we don't 'help' others. But we do have to remember or be mindful that we could only share our ideas, and if that person is willing to accept your ideas, then that person is, in truth, helping himself and you had played no part in it, except to share your views. Ok, you might argue that, if you didn't share your views, then that person may not even had that option. But think about it again, had there been times, perhaps many many times that when you shared your ideas of what people should do, ought to do, could do, and people are totally oblivious to what you say? That's more that I could add to it. But seriously, how do I summarise everything here, when there is actually so, so much more.

The journey is paradoxical. I used to see anger, hatred, sadness and all negative feelings as big, big taboos that I'd hide them and sweep them under the carpet. But now, as they come, although I do admit the resistant attitude (from awareness), I welcome them. They give me a glimpse of the shit I had sown in the Mind when I was still 'asleep'. And do you know what I mean by being 'asleep'? No, no.. I am not saying that I am awaken, but I am in the journey of awakening. A lot of people misunderstand the concept of 'enlightenment'. Until now, there is still no sure to know exactly what it actually is. Only an enlightenment being knows, and that too, is hard to be put into words.

I just want to clarify that what I share from my journey in these entries with anyone who happens to read my blog is from my heart. They don't mean to offend, belittle or put down anyone. They serve as a sharing of my experiences and my realisations in the hope that if you too, resonate with my experiences that my realisations may support you on your inward journey.

I don't know even, if I should apologise. To apologise, would separate us. Separate us from the right and the wrong. Ahh... such is this world of duality. But if it does make anyone who had misunderstood my entries feel any better - I am sorry, please forgive me, I love you - from the bottom of my heart. Truly, even in times, when the Mind perceives you as someone for me to blame, the scapegoat for me to runaway from my pain. Because, I already know better.

Namaste.

ME!! BAH!!!

I literally feel like pulling my hair out of my head, bang my head against the wall and etc etc.... I know, I know.. sounds a lot dramatic when I word it out, but if you were to see me now, I am as calm as a cat - only that the mind is playing rounds and rounds of scenes of self abuse.

Upset, jealous, disappointed, unwelcomed, angry, pissed, sad, unhappy... yeah... you name it, I've got it. These are the roll of emotions swimming in the mind, in feelings at the moment. Grrrr.....

I witnessed something today. It is not unpleasant, really. It was just... really, in a reality, a 'pleasant' surprise, but the mind obviously did not let me go in that direction. Oooohh... I could hear it in my head then as I walked away, "What I am?"; "You fool!! How ignorant of you!!"; "See? See?? See how unworthy you are? See how you have been tricked again and again? Just to be fooled again?"; "Hahahah!!! You mean, you actually thought you were loved???? They loved you???? WHO COULD EVER LOVE YOU???? Muahahhaa...."; "You are alone babe!"; "Nobody likes you, everybody hates you, you're gonna eat some worms... hahaha"; Oh those cruel, cruel thoughts.. sent my blood boiling I tell you. And, retyping this again, makes me feel like crying... :(

Naturally, the first instance was to blame... always blaming, always so unwilling to look at the 'shit' within. As I ordered my sandwich and teh tarik, I sat down, watching the prosecuting mind and then decided, just for 2 seconds, that I ought to be calm. And then I heard the gentlest voice, "There are no friends. There's only You." It was so gentle that I literally blinked a few times (yes, I was aware of the blinking). I finally settled down, ate my sandwich, read 'Breaking Dawn' a little before being interrupted by hubby's phonecall.

I told hubby about the upset feelings. He asked me, "do you want me to a husband who supports you and bitch with you, or do you want me to be a spiritual husband?" I laughed. I told him it was fine with me either way (because I was aware that in any way, they were both my creations.. lols). So he started...

the suppotive & bitchy husband... "in the level of form, yeah.. they should have called you out of courtesy la..."

the spiritual husband... "in phase 2, you know you created everything, just dive into the feeling and see what's there..."

Sighs... what would I ever do without hubby... lols...

While that made me feel a wee tiny weeny bit better, I called Angel still after my teh tarik as I looked around for a birthday present for Siang. Surprisingly, she shared that she experienced the same thing I'd just experienced!! I laughed so loud!! "So, it looks like we are stuck together huh?!?" Of course, I was only kidding... we both just felt left out. But we know, it has nothing to do with anything that had happened. It was just us anyway, just us all along.

If you asked me now, yeah I still feel upset. I guess it is because I am not in the right understanding yet. But, there was a glimpse earlier on the way home - as if, seeming to imply that... I am pissed off with my own ideas... the ideas that I was still hanging on to with regards to certain friends in my life - or perhaps, the concepts of best friends, close friends, very very good friends, angels, whatever... and the people that I associate those concepts with. Yeah.... I've been through that one before. So many times... So, looks like there are still residual pieces that I'd still need to deal it.

I wonder, why does the mind like to be attached to concepts, and then associate people with concepts. Ahh... what irony, why wonder when I already knew the answer? The "I". As Byron Katie query, "Who would you be without your story?" That's right, who would "I" be without a story, without "my" story...

Pathetic.

Love ~ An Excerpt from the Bible

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Love is patient and kind,

Love is not jealous or

boastful or proud or rude,

Love does not demand its own way,

Love is not irritable,

And it keeps no records of when it has been wronged,

It is never glad about injustice but

rejoices whenever the truth wins out,

Love never gives up,

Never loses faith, is always hopeful

And endures through every circumstance.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Beyond the Realm of Conscience Episode 19: Friends

Since I have actually completed partial of my work, and have not much inspiration to write on the new topic, I thought I'd better write this entry before I forget or felt uninspired to do so later. ;p

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I've been watching AOD Chanel 901 - Beyond the Realm of Conscience. The drama revolves around the emperor time in China and the politics and survival skills of the servants, officers, concubines and etc etc during that era. Of course, I can't verify the truth. It's just a story. But what interest me in last night's episod is this - you see, there are these 2 ladies. They are like heads of different departments under a division. From episode 1 on, they were not in good terms and kept finding faults in and with each other. In some episodes, some of the servants girls revealed that these 2 ladies used to be really good friends, like sisters... and then don't know what happened, out of some stuffs that happened to each of them resulting in regrets in each of their own lives (one could not meet the one she loves hence had to forgo the relationship & the other could not make it to her mother's deathbed before her mother died), they bore anger towards each other, thinking that it was the others' fault that they could not fulfil their wish. I won't go into details on how it happened, because honestly, I am not so sure myself as the language that they use in this series is extremely formal and a little difficult to understand. But I can guess as much that one has thought that the other had sabotaged her and vice versa. Hence the grudge for 20-over years.

And in last night's episode (episode 19), the 2 ladies finally realised that it was all a misunderstanding! That they were both sabotaged by their Head of division just to retain them in the palace to assist her (the Head of division) due to their talented skills. You see, during that time (or rather, according to the series), when one goes into a palace to serve, it is almost impossible to leave the palace walls until the day they die. So, if the King or the Queen pardons or approves the exit, the servant is considered 'free' and is able to leave the palace and to return to their village of birth. It is considered a rare opportunity. So, these 2 ladies missed their opportunities because the head of division sabotaged them but created the situation in a way that it was done by the each of the ladies to the other as an attempt to avenge. So the misunderstanding went on for more than 20 years and finally the truth was revealed to them by the Head of Division's niece.

Of course, they were angry and pissed... but when they were alone, being able to reflect on their thoughts, they realised they themselves were not entirely innocent too. They pondered and regretted on the level of their own trust onto a friend who was like a sister; for being so easily influenced by others; and the numerous times they later tried to sabotage each other just to get on each other's nerves after that... imagine, for 20-over years... and finally realising that it was all for nothing... nothing ever existed, nothing ever happened to justify such actions of hostility! And, the friendship wrecked; due to lack of trust, lack of understanding - just missing the essence of clarification & clarity.

I know, I may not have presented the story so well and please forgive for being long-winded. I figured that it would be easier to understand if I tried to relate the story before stating my point. You see, after watching that episode, I pondered upon my own experiences with many of my friends whom I had 'fought' with, 'avoided', 'made-up' with and etc. It was sad to think that over something so trival, a friendship could turn so sour due to lack of understanding, lack of trust. From experience, I dare say 'losing' a good friend is one of the most painful experiences in the world.

This, is all part of being 'human'. All part of the game. And it takes a lot of integrity, understanding, strength and courage to want to do things differently, to head towards the direction of clarity, of love. Don't you agree, it is so much easier to 'blame' a friend, rather than to pluck up the courage to call that friend out, face to face, to clarify matters? And even so, don't you think, it takes a lot of strength not to be defensive while the other party is trying to relate his or her story to you, of her innocence, or her 'ignorance' of blaming you for what happened to him or her? Don't you think it would take patience to work the issue backwards, only to find out that it was all just a misunderstanding, a miscommunication, a mis-conception, a mis-perception? And don't you think, after you have fully forgiven each other and most imporatntly yourselves, you hug each other and cry - that it was all worth it???

I have 2 girlfriends (I won't mention names on this one) who had always commented that I was very fake some years back because I never expressed my anger or disappointments towards them whenever it comes to them. Nevermind whether they feel guilty and just want me to give them a piece of my mind (lols). At that time, I bottled everything inside me because I loved them so much... that I felt I was the hero and could resolve anything that I didn't like within me. Of course, today I knew that I was kinda doing the right thing, except that my intention was wrong then. I was keeping those feelings to myself because I didn't want to lose them, failing in an attempt to understand myself or them any better. It was just swept away under the carpet. But today, gracefully I know a little better. :) And because of that, I now enjoy a better, and fuller friendship with them. I don't watch myself like a hawk when I am with them anymore, afraid to burst or something... lols. I just simply be the bimbo that I am when I am with them. ;D

I appreciate that drama series like these can teach us a thing of two. Or at least, just me :D. I like reading and watching tv. Maybe that's why Clove&Clive appointed me to be the Program Manager for the Free Movie event. I just love to share my insights after I've watched a movie, or a show. Even, after reading a book. It's just fulfiling.. :)

To all my friends, I love you. I appreciate you being true to me, and also to yourself. May our 'disagreements' if any, bring us closer in spirit to understanding ourselves even better, at a deeper level. Love, Love, Love... :)

Wi-Fi at Gloria Jeans.

This is awesome! I am writting this entry with my laptop at Gloria Jeans, Subang Parade. I brought my laptop along today because I wanted to start off with some writing and to finish off some other writing. Don't know if I am being ambitious about that, but ah well... I could always try to do what I could do, righto?

What awed me earlier was the experience relating to my inability to connect to the wi-fi on my laptop. I was tempted to ask the waiters for help but instinctively I turned behind me instead (there were 2 men sitting behind me also enjoying their breakfast at Gloria Jeans) and stared at one of the men. Yes, I stared. lols. He looked up at me, telephatically asking me, "what's wrong lady?" I stood up immediately, pointed at my laptop and said, "sorry, was just wondering if you'd be able to help me connect to the internet." They agreed without hesitating and one of them actually came to my table to fix my connection issue! Erm, evidently, it is working perfectly! *winks* Ah... an Earth Angel at work... :D

I couldn't help thinking what a genious he was to be able to find out what the cause of the connection problem and to resolve it for me. Just like my little brother, Inro.. lols. So grateful!

Anyway, this is just babbling away.. hehehe.. find that I have a tendency to that these days... got to head back to work now before I start distracting myself away from work! Lols!

Back to Duty.

I finally finished the Eclipse last night. I decided to take a little break from reading and watched tv, enjoyed facial, groceries, a little housekeeping for my study room and also some work on a website that I am working on. I think I had a pretty 'normal' day today for a 'tai-tai' (meaning, a housewife who isn't really a housewife in cantonese ;p). But I guess what I lacked to do today was to read Thea a story book which I promised before I returned Angel's call. We are always like that, once on the phone we talk non-stop until one of us REALLY have to go. Sometimes, I think that's bad.. lols.

It's 1am now. I am waiting for hubby to come home from work. Actually, I know that he'd be late because he was flying with his buddy, Kelvin. Whenever they are together, it is like when Angel and I are together. Just can't get enough of each other... talk and talk and talk only.. I used to teased him, "eh, what multi-billion project you talking about lah?" and Kelvin's wife apparently share the same sentiment. There was once, when we visited them and hubby was talking to Kelvin and I was hanging out with Elaine (Kelvin's wife) while the girls (they have twin daughters) were playing, she revealed to me that there was this time, she was shocked to see this number repeating so many times on the phone bill. She got really suspicious and dialed that number... ah... it was MY hubby's number.. so she was relieved.. lols. So funny.

Hmm, I hear the car alarm now. He must be back. So it must be time to sleep. Tomorrow will be another long day which I will try to figure this website that I am working on. It has been a drag... the html coding, the understanding of the languages to work the website.. hideous experience I tell you! brrrrr.... but I will get the hang of it I guess.. I've got a genious brother who is expert in IT, and best of all, I am GOD!! Muahahhahahhaaa... but of course, in the event I can't tackle the website... I will always have willing supporters.. ;p

Ok la.. time to stop talking nonsence... nighty night!!

Foul Mood

Don't know why... my usual cheery morning turned into an edgy morning today. Probably it was because I was trying to read 'Eclipse' while numerous phonecalls kept coming in, interupting my pace :(. And hubby had to ask the stupidest question, "Where are you?" when he EXACTLY KNOWS where the hell I'd be at that hour of the morning!! Grrrr... but opps, I did let out my frustrations on him when it has nothing to do with him huh?

I do feel irritated today. Actually I can't understand it myself. I tried analyzing that it could be because there are 3 different parties coming to my house today for their services, namely the Gardener (routine maintenance), OSIM service fella (massage chair broken) and our contractor (toilet leaking). But when I started to rationalised with myself again, it seemed to be irrelevant - because there is nothing to do except to tell them what is wrong, let them figure it out themselves and then hubby to follow up! What could be edgy or irritating about that, right?

Ah well.. many other incidents which I am lazy to write it out. I am just plain not-focused at the moment. I just wanna read... after this, that is!

ARGH... now there's hubby at the door, telling me how I had parked my car in the garage... arghhh... yeah, I know... I don't feel like parking properly today, SO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? ARGHHHHH.....

Mother's Touch

The other day I received a call from dad requesting me to take one of Chalse's (his favourite dog) sick puppy to the vet. Apparently, the puppy wasn't drinking and was cold all the time.

I took the puppy to the nearby vet, accompanied by hubby and Thea. The vet explained that these kind of conditions are usually bacterial or viral infections caused by no immunity in the puppy. When I revealed to her that the puppies were separated from their mother because they refuse to drink milk when they are with their mother (due to the fact that the mother [Chalse] is rather old hence her incapability to produce sufficient milk for the puppies], she explained that the puppies NEED to be with their mother, regardless. The mother knows instinctively how to clean the puppies, warm the puppies and nurture the puppies (yeah, expect the no-milk part) and this helps the puppies. They (the puppies) function better naturally with their mother with them, not separated. Although their immune system would not be as good due to lack of mother's milk but because of the mother's instinct to clean them, they would be free of germs anyway. I spent quite some time at the vet absorbing whatever that I could from the vet and at the same time, sent love to the little puppy. I looked at him with so much love and compassion in my heart that I decided to name him 'Hero'; I just know that he will survive this. And also, the vet clinic did need a name for the puppy to register his file in their computer system. ;p

Today, dad called today asking if I had old newspapers for the puppies use. I quickly offered whatever old newspapers that were left in my storeroom and brought the pile over just about half hour ago.

On my way to dad's place, I remembered that after the visit to the vet, I'd advised the maid (from the vet's tireless sharing) that she needed to provided a cleaner environment for the puppies, i.e. instead of just changing the newspaper beneath them. I explained that she needed to take a warm cloth to clean their face, wiped their "a-hem" and bum-bum and so on so forth. When I arrived at dad's place with the old newspapers, I took the opportunity to ask her how Hero was. She smiled and said cheerfully that he was already eating!! And heartily!! My heart jumped with joy! I was so happy that Hero had recovered and is now healthy! I asked her if she did anything differently. She shared that besides cleaning them more thoroughly, she also started to put the puppies near Chalse so that they could be close to their mother. At the same time, as they attempt to suckle their mother's nipples for milk, she sat beside them ready to ambush them with the milk bottle!! Lols.. she is so smart! I was absolutely delighted. :)

As I reversed my car from dad's driveway, I smiled at the thought of how much a mother's touch could do to a child; be it a human or an animal. People used to say that a Mother's Love is unconditional. However, after I've embarked the spiritual journey, I realised that Mother's Love too, is conditional - because it is uncondittional by the fact that 'YOU' are 'MY' child - and that, is a condition. Having said that though, Mother's Love can be experienced as the closest we'd ever get to Unconditional Love here on earth... Ahh... Unconditional Love reminds me of dear Master Hari too. :D

So Mothers out there (myself included) - my deepest respect, salute, gratitute, appreciation and love to you! :D

Body, Mind & Spirit Event (BMS Event) @ Clove&Clive, Kelana Jaya - OUTCOME

Is it my imagination, or all other friends really have nothing to update about their experiences?!? They have been quiet. :/

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Today is the last day of the Body, Mind & Spirit Event (BMS Event). I must say that the turnout was really good, considering the fact that some practitioners who initially did not have any appointments ended up with appointments so full that the Event ended kinda late.

Angel would say that I am abundance, that's why (lols); but I'd say that it was all divine order. :)

I served as a volunteer at the registration counter. Registering the participants, ensuring comfort for the practitioners, circulated the financial appreciation between the participants to the practitioners and had fun chatting with whoever that came into the center. It was mostly fun. Today, was really fun because I finally saw Angel! I had not seen her for a few days!! She turned up at the center with her whole family (she was not feeling well for the past few days which was why I was mostly running on a one-man, opps, woman show with some assistance and support from Lee Yuen and Steven). It was fun chatting and gossipping with her. And then Lilie came, Bee came, Jer Lin came, my uncle Stewart came.. and oh yes, Mom and Chow came too yesterday for a session! It was really good to see them at the center experiencing the sessions conducted.

Although I am a little tired after the Event but I'd say that it was all worthwhile. It felt good to see satisfied participants walking out of the center with more clarity or some form of relief on their issues. :)

I am utterly grateful and appreciative for the practitioners who participated in this Event and for the participants who gave themselves, the practitioners and us (Clove&Clive) a chance to experience what it's really like. It feels great! :)

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So, I have neglected 'Eclipse'. I am going to catch up on it soon... Night night!

Time Flies

How fast time flies. It is already Friday.

Today was an exceptionally busy day for me comparing to my other days in this week besides my reading of the Twilight series. Hubby bought me the 3th & 4th series and I have decided to take it easy on the reading of more vampires, werewolves and the illusionary meaning of love between a human and a vampire.

Finally obtained the offer letter from the school that we would put Thea in, at the same time accompanying Jer Lin for her appointment with Peggy. The meeting with Peggy (although nothing directly related to me) served as further validation to me that, THAT IS, the school I'd want Thea to be in. How wonderful! :D

Had tea with Jer Lin and later bought some other household stuffs. Had tea with hubby and Thea (hubby complained that he wanted tea too! ;p) after Jer Lin left. Had dinner and then proceeded to a massive grogery stock-up at Tesco. It was a wonderful trip. Now that I am back, I am happy to see Bee & Prissy at home. I like to come home to more people at home. :D

Now, while Bee is talking to me by my side while I am writing this... and then now (oops, now fast a moment goes by), walked away (being aware that I am not paying attention to him! lols), and watching hubby entertain Thea by my side too (we are in the same room)... it's blissful. :) Did I mention, after grocery, we went to have dip-dip (luk-luk in cantonese) for supper and Thea whalloped 2 sticks full of fishballs! So fun!

Tomorrow and Sunday will be a busy day for me. Angeline is not well physically so I will be running the show almost alone. But Soo Lan will be there to help out and I am really grateful for that. It's Clove&Clive's BMS Event by the way, and I am looking forward to serving the practitioners and participants there. It will be a fulfilling weekend. I know that eventhough I am playing a pretty small role, I'd make a difference there in providing a cozy and calming environment for the people present at the centre.

It's 10.40pm now. Time to packup for tomorrow's fruitful day, and to catch up with either Eclipse or AOD. Have a great and blessed weekend you! :)

New Moon

There, I've finished the book in 2 days. I read it when I first got it, read it before my nap, read it after my nap, read it before, during, after dinner, read it before I showered and immediately after changing, before AOD 901 & 921 started, in the midst of them and after that.. even, after Thea dozed off to dreamland, I was reading by the little lamp by my bedside.. I was addicted.

My only distractions today was breakfast with Ryan, Agnes and her sister, Irene, some insurance stuffs that I needed to settle and a resident committee meeting that I've called for. And I had completed the 2nd series of the Twilight Saga.

Ok, now I am trying to understand why the girls are so crazy about vampires..

The book was an enjoyment! I totally enjoyed my experience journeying the writer's creative and imaginative storyline. Now, I am wondering if the movie which will be screening on 20th November 2009 be as good as how it had been written. Nevertheless, I already have a date with hubby on that one and I am looking forward to it already. :D

I question myself - what now. Do I go back to MPH tomorrow to get Eclipse (the 3th series) or take a break? Although I roughly knew how the storyline went (thanks to the girls' neverending ramp about it whenever we met lately), I guess I am still looking forward to experience it myself.

I guess it is time to enjoy the illusion for a while. :)

The Purposeful Inception

What a title! I am amazed myself. :)

I slept through the day after reading a few chapters of 'New Moon'. Interesting. And shortly after I've got up from my nap, I received a call from Ryan, more like a follow up of his earlier sms that they (Ryan & Agnes) went for a gynae checkup and found that the baby did not have a heartbeat. They seeked for a second opinion and the results were the same. I think, it must have been sad news for them. And I believe that they composed themselves before calling me to update me on the news.

To be honest, there was a certain kind of understanding that unfolded in my space. That, the baby did not die, only that the formation of the egg and sperm had fulfilled its purpose in bringing Ryan & Agnes closer in spirit through their union. Although I do remember what I vaguely told Ryan & Agnes in my attempt to uplift them from their recent sadness, I also remember that the words that came out from my mouth were natural and did not require thinking. It was as if, the information did not come from me, and yet, I had all the answers. Something that hubby mentioned once to me, too.

Who could tell, why the formation of life - which brought two people together in their union? Who could tell why that formation fell apart right after the wedding? What are they but a story, or if you like it, a purpose for it and for what purpose further would they stay on if their purpose had been fulfilled?

I told Ryan & Agnes to pray tonight - to thank God and the little one for His and his presence, if ever they are separate; also to light a candle. I don't know why. I guess it is just a symbol - a symbol of light, of innocence, of purity, of love.

Blessed be, dear one. Love be with you, and Ryan, and Agnes.

A Little Downtime from Qigong (AGAIN!) & Something to Perk me Up!

I felt a bit whoosy and dizzy and weak today the minute I got up and I can't help but associate it with last night's session of Qigong. Ah well, at least it was not as bad as the other time and I think it was because I was smarter this time... I was more careful not to 'overexert' myself or 'overabsorb' chi, for that matter. Lols.

Although I am a little sorry that I am not too well today, but there is something that I did for myself to perk me up! I bought 'New Moon' by Stephanie Meyer today! Well you see, I was contemplating if I should get those books since Terri & Gladys already have them and I could just borrow from them.. but you know what happened (of course you don't know.. how would you know, right?? DUH!!), I dropped Gladys book (Twilight) in a puddle of mud on Saturday night. It's not nice to give people back a muddy book right?(lols), so I decided that I will keep the book and get a new one for her. And since I was keeping the first book, aiyah.. might as well just buy the second and the third and the forth right? Hehehe.. well, I was tempted to, but I decided not to overwhelm myself too much so I took one step at a time. Bought 'New Moon' first. :)

I've started reading a few pages after reading a few chapters of Byron Katie's 'A Thousand Names for Joy' earlier while waiting for Thea to finish class. Just want to ensure a good mix.. lols. It will surely keep my day going for now.

Catch 'ya later, alligator!! ;p

My 2nd QiGong Class

You guessed right, I chickened out (if you did make a guess if I'd ever continue Qigong). After my first attempt at Gigong and falling sick after that, I got really scared going back to Qigong classes. So I keeped the 2nd, 3rd and 4th class altogether. But today, I decided that I've paid for it and won't put my hubby's hard earn money to waste, so I changed into the Qigong uniform and prepared myself.

Believe it or not, before I left home, I felt F-E-A-R. Real, solid F-E-A-R! To the extent that I actually felt nauseous! I was THAT scared! I quickly called Angel. I couldn't stand the fear! I so wanted to turn my car around but at the same time, diligently watched the 'wanting to turn my car around' feeling.

The instructor, Simon, reminded that he could help me. He said all I had to do was to tell him. Fine. That still didn't seem to calm me to the degree of my self inflicted fear. Angel asked me, "if you are not ready, you don't have to do it." The thing is, I am already AT IT!! Stubbon, hard-headed me!! Argh!!!

I was very cautious throughout the whole session, careful not to overdraw 'chi', or overabsorb 'chi'. Although I had no complaints about the earlier down time after Qigong, but I guess the memory is still very fresh in the head hence my reluctance to re-experience it. In the midst of the session, I could feel that familar nauseous, full feeling again... argh... I quickly called out to Simon who advised me to shake my legs, or to rotate my ankles clockwise or anti-clockwise. I did as I was told. Ok, I did feel better. But it didn't stop thoughts like, "geez.. I am really not enjoying this"; "this is so boring..."; or "I really, really prefer dancing..." swimming around in my head. Oh well, another session done. There's still coming Thursday to see how I truly feel about Qigong without judging it. Two lessons are too little time to assess anything.

I am aware of my judgements towards Qigong due to a past experience.. argh.. why do past experiences always have a take on our future actions.. argh... but I am quite sure, that since I am not my mind, I would continue trying this out, until I am divinely inspired to stop... Lols.

Time to shower now. Night! :)

Body, Mind & Spirit Event (BMS Event) on 7th & 8th Nov @ Clove&Clive, Kelana Jaya

One of the activities that I assist and support Clove&Clive is the Body, Mind & Spirit Event. It is the 4th time that they are hosting this event within the span of 2 years. So far, the response has been good.

You see, besides Clove&Clive's vision to be a centre which reaches out to people to live and love consciously through mindfulness, it also serves to educate and conduct experiential sessions of the alternative therapies available in the local market besides our very conventional moden medicine which mainly consist of drugs, drugs and drugs! More like, instead of treating the symptoms, let's just get to root cause of any discomfort (health, personal, money) to dissolve it  nature's way (without the intoxication of drugs and going under the knife, that is). When there's balance in the body, mind & spirit, one is able to function more completely in life. The motivation behind this move gave birth to the Body, Mind & Spirit Event.

To elaborate more about the basis of this Event, we invite several practitioners in the local market whose objectives are similar, that is, to reach out to people with love and compassion. For this round, the therapies include aura & chakra readings, dorn therapy, fairy card readings, digital meridian system reading (which is actually a health reading), tarot card reading and past life regression. We (yes, including me) at Clove&Clive believe that to tackle any discomfort in our lives, be it mental stress, physically pain or outside issues (career, relationships and etc), we need to go back to the source of the so-called problem/issue.

In such sessions, say, if you have a health problem (backache, constant headache and etc), a relationship problem (spouse, girlfriend/boyfriend, in-laws, children, boss, maid...), a money problem (career or business), depending on the type of therapies you choose, you might be able to derive either some answers to your situation or some guidance to lead you out of your 'problems'. Of course, it is also subjective to your own willingness. If your intention is just to try it out just for fun, it works that way too! ;) You'd be surprised what you could find out about yourself too! SERIOUS!!!

Anyway, just to brief you on the details in case you are interested (and I sincerely hope that you are interested!): -

Date: 7th & 8th November 2009

Time: 930am - 6pm

(if you have already secured an appointment, then you may just arrive 15 minutes before your appointment time)

Venue: Clove&Clive

F-02-02 Dataran Glomac, Jalan SS6/5B, Pusat Bandar Kelana Jaya, 47301, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

Click here for the map.

Therapies/ Duration per session/ Financial Appreciation/ Dates Available/ Practitioner's Name

Digital Meridian System (DMS) Reading/ 30 mins/ RM30 per session/ 7th & 8th November/ Chong Lee Yuen

Dorn Therapy/ 45 mins/ RM100 per session/ 7th & 8th November/ Terry McCarthy

(btw, this is FULL)

Past Life Regression Workshop/ 3 hours (9:30am - 12:30pm)/ RM100 per pax/ 7th November only/ Selina Chew

(this is a really special rate, seriously!! if you have always been curious about your past life, don't miss this one!)

Past Life Regression Private Session/ 90 mins/ RM280 per pax/ 7th November only/ Selina Chew

Aura & Chakra Reading/ 15-20 mins/ RM30 per session/ 8th November only/ Selvi & Ishtar (this is GOOD!! My personal experience!!)

Fairies Card Reading/ 15 mins/ RM30 per session/ 7th November only/ Jacob Kho

Tarot Card Reading/ 30 mins/ RM50 per question/ 8th November only/ Adrienne Tan

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Weekend

Twilight

You wouldn't believe it. I actually couldn't put the book down! 'Twilight', I mean! And I was contemplating after I finished the last page of the book, if I should rush to the book store to get 'New Moon'. I assessed my impulsiveness and decided - no, not today anyway; because I would have made a purposefully drive there, wasting resources. I'll get it tomorrow.. ;p

I finished the book in 2 days. It was great. I did not find it long-winded as what the girls experienced. I loved Stephenie Meyer's writing style, so descriptive and detailed, so that I, as the reader was able to experience what the writer envisaged. Fantastic. And guess what, I made hubby watch the movie with me too! He summarised that it gave him an insight of what Vampires are really like (especially the new breed - by the way, he loves vampires), and I experienced it more as a... you know, love story.. rather than a vampire story. The experience of a girl, falling in love; the experience of a girl, being in love; the experience of a girl, who fights to be with the one she loves. Yeah sure, the vampires do make the story a little more interesting. :)

Ryan & Agnes' Wedding

That was on Saturday night. We were right on time for the dinner. Hubby was making a fuss during the drive there on how we are always late for wedding dinners and etc etc etc... lols... it was really cute. I was unaffected at all. As far as I was concerned, I was not late. I was on time. I didn't have to wait for 1.5 hours before dinner started, and it gave me some time (or rather sufficient time) to say hi, congratulate the groom, find my sit and act pretty. Within half hour, dinner started. What perfect timing!!

Agnes looked beautiful. But that night, instead of bringing the G10 or BB's 500D (did I mention, BB put his 500D under my care while away on retreat), I brought out 'Twilight'. Really, as if I could read in the car or during dinner (quite rude, right?) - so I totally missed a picture opportunity with them with my own camera. Agnes was a little uncomfy in her gowns because well, she is pregnant. I guess the bloatedness and etc got into her. I remember those feelings.. hmm...

We didn't stay very late. Ryan had too many friends there to entertain to hope that he would give us the usual attention that he would have given us. So, we decided to leave early, right after dessert. :)

Salsa Havana

I heard that Salsa Havana was closing down and relocating. Hubby was quite sure that after the wedding dinner, I would want to go straight home so that I could continue reading 'Twilight'. He was right. There was about 80% of me which wanted to do that. But I figured, we (hubby and I) were already out, and I was dressed pretty decently (not like my usual si-lai-house-wife style) so I told him that I want to go to Salsa Havana - that is, of course, if Alina was there too.

So I texted Alina. So blessed, she was there. After the dessert, we left for Salsa Havana. It has been a long while since I've heard latin music. Sounded like heaven to me. I was welcomed by the sight of Mike standing outside Salsa Havana, smoking. He then brought me to Alina. It was so good to see her again! I missed her. :) And it was pretty good to see her in colours too (as in colourful makeup)! She looked gorgeous. :)

I had a total of 3.5 dances only (yes, I counted). Thrice with Mike and half a dance with hubby. I tried to teach him, but he was really too shy... poor fella.. Besides that, I had a great time catching up with Alina. :)

We left at about 1pm. I think we were there for barely 1.5 hours. But it was ok. It was a good start. At least I am physically there, rather than dreaming about it!!

Home & Sleep

After we got home and changed, I read. Lols... just couldn't resist. But I guess I was too tired after that, I actually dozed off.

And I woke up the next morning (Sunday) at 1130am!! Jolly wholly!! I've never woke up so late in a long long time! Felt great! And then I read, and read, and read with the short interruption trip to Pyramid to get my laptop fixed (the letter 's' on my keyboard hadn't been functioning for a while ;p).

And can you imagine, after we got back, I slept some more.. suddenly I just love to sleep so much.. Lols. Must be catching up with lost sleep before this!

I was literally forced to wake up just to have dinner.. :/ I think if hubby didn't wake me up, I would have slept right through... just to wake up to read 'Twilight' instead.

Dinner was darn good, by the way. My in laws (had dinner with them) always had a way to work up my appetite! :D

Conclusion

I had a good mix of the weekend. The reading, the dancing, the sleeping, the eating, the traveling, the catching up and etc... Now, I am quite determined to get a pair of dancing schools. I wanna go dancing with Alina and Gladys and Terri. Hubby said he would take up dancing, as long as it made me happy. Well, I am more in a position of, 'if you wanna take up dancing, make sure that you are happy. not me!'